Okay. So....that was a bad way to start a journey to the new me. I wasn't fully thinking when I decided to attempt that right before the holidays when I work RETAIL. Let me just say, Christmas kicked my diet's ass. Needless to say, those couple pounds I lost? Back. But no worries--i'm not discouraged. I'm kinda pissed at myself, but other than that, I knew that would happen. So. As of right now, I guess we'll start over. lol.
Everyone has resoultions for the new year. Most are fragile. They do not last past January; however, the one that I am making for this year--its not really a "resolution." It is a PROMISE to myself and my husband. No, I am not "promising" to lose weight. I am PROMISING to become a healthier me. For myself. For my husband. For my future children. Old habits die hard (as we found out these past couple weeks with all the good food). Its gonna be a long road, and a hard one. I am determined now more than ever to kick my old habits out on the curb, and bring in newer, healthier ones. Like my father is doing with finances--it takes baby steps to get to where you wanna go. First step, no junk food...which all-in-all is easy because I generally dont keep that stuff around anymore. Second step, cutting out fast food by making sure i have groceries that are healthy choices for me to pack for lunches. Third step? Making sure I try to go to the gym at LEAST 3 times a week. I would love to go 5 or 6...but while working retail? Not plausible all the time. Its possible, but it just depends on my schedule.
I have to plan everything out. Bring a change of clothes with me to work. Try to find healthier recipes. Branch out. I'm very picky, so it gets to be hard. If i'm craving something, I usually go for it. I need to find healthier versions of what I like. so we can make meals and still be healthy. Things are starting to pick up financially, and so I should be able to afford a little more grocery wise and what not. Hoping so, at least. As long as I can get better (i've been sick for a bout a week now...no idea what), I shouldn't have any problems starting this for real on Sunday.
Anyways. I probably wont post again until next week sometime. So for now--I hope you all had a Merry Christmas and have a Happy New Year.
-Beth
Wednesday, December 28, 2011
Thursday, December 15, 2011
Motivation
Okay Guys, I didn't post yesterday...but I was still sick. I dont know what I ended up picking up, but whatever it was--it was nasty. I'm just now starting to feel a little better. My stomach still doesn't feel too great, but its getting better. On a plus side, I weighed myself this morning and I am at 252.2. :) Thats what happens when your sick as a dog and can't really tolerate any food for two days. Hoping it will stay down....I know the only way it will stay down is if i get back to the gym...with my being sick, I haven't gone the past two days. My plan is to go when I get off work...I like sitting in the hot tub after work. it makes my feet hurt less. now tomorrow...i'll have to go before work probably. cuz i'm getting my nails done after work. So Idk, we'll figure it out...working a weird shift makes going to the gym difficult. lol.
But anyways, so...I'm gonna try really hard to go to the gym today. Pray that my stomach will chill out and I have the strength to go to the gym tonight and tomorrow morning. I need as much help as I can get. but anyways. sorry for such a short post today--but since I've been sick, theres really nothing to rant or rave about. lol. wish me luck.
-beth
But anyways, so...I'm gonna try really hard to go to the gym today. Pray that my stomach will chill out and I have the strength to go to the gym tonight and tomorrow morning. I need as much help as I can get. but anyways. sorry for such a short post today--but since I've been sick, theres really nothing to rant or rave about. lol. wish me luck.
-beth
Tuesday, December 13, 2011
Soup and Crackers
Okay guys...today...today is not a day i'd like to blog about. mainly because I had to cancel my assessment. i woke up this morning sick, and have been fighting some sort of stomach bug or food poisoning or something...I know this stuff happens...but it just gets me so mad. It always tends to happen when I have to work and when I'm trying to get things done. There are a million things I have to do before Saturday, and I have to work the next 3 days. Granted, its not all day....but, like...for example--tomorrow I work 5a-11a....if my stomach is better and i think i can tolerate jarring my body for an hour, then I'll go to the gym....get out of there about 1230 or 1...which would have meant that I've been going non-stop since 3a. by the time i get home from that, i'm going to be exhausted...and guess what I get to do? Clean. Thursday I work 11a-4:45...so barely any time there...and Friday I work 11a-5:15...then have a nail appt at 530...then most likely babysitting Daniel's cousin... This weekend is gonna be busy as crap. We've got Daniel's family christmas stuff on Saturday intermingled with a wedding for a friend. Sunday its stuff with my family. Monday is my anniversary. Tues-Wed I work 4a-11a. Thursday I work 11-6. Friday is the killer thou--I work 6a-10a, then 830p-1230a...and saturday--christmas eve--i work 11:30-6:30. I'm not complaining about the hours at all, I need them desperately. I just wanted to show you guys how busy the next couple weeks are....
Needless to say, I'm gonna have to have a hell of a lot of motivation to get me to the gym over the next few days...It'll be easy to say "oh, well...I'll go after work" and then after work say "oh...I'll go tomorrow morning"....well...I know for one thing--I'm gonna be skipping the gym on Saturday...and I"ve already skipped today. I guess this is just one of those blogs where I rant and yell and cry and ugh. Lemme just say...today has not been good. All I've been able to stomach is sprite, some mini saltines (like...4), and a little bit of soup. I tried toast this morning, no luck. Tried a luna bar at work...again, no luck...made me feel worse. getting sick is never fun. But i guess since my caloric intake was so low, that made up for me being curled up in the fetal position on the couch for most of the day.
On the plus size (side), I have started watching Drop Dead Diva...and it gave me a little bit of laughter in this crazy day. Its a really good show. Wishing I was caught up on Glee so I could watch the new one. sad day. but anyways. so my point for today's blog is to let everyone know that while there are good days, like yesterday, there are also those days that are terrible...complete opposite. yen and yang. and let me just say this:
You know what bad day?? Forget you! Forget you and this nasty bug you brought with you. Go back to the depths of Hell and never return. You are no help to me or anyone else you try to ruin. Adios. Oh, and Satan? You can have your discouragement back. I dont need it. thanks for nothing!
peace out and the best of luck to any of those out there who are sick as well. no fun.
Needless to say, I'm gonna have to have a hell of a lot of motivation to get me to the gym over the next few days...It'll be easy to say "oh, well...I'll go after work" and then after work say "oh...I'll go tomorrow morning"....well...I know for one thing--I'm gonna be skipping the gym on Saturday...and I"ve already skipped today. I guess this is just one of those blogs where I rant and yell and cry and ugh. Lemme just say...today has not been good. All I've been able to stomach is sprite, some mini saltines (like...4), and a little bit of soup. I tried toast this morning, no luck. Tried a luna bar at work...again, no luck...made me feel worse. getting sick is never fun. But i guess since my caloric intake was so low, that made up for me being curled up in the fetal position on the couch for most of the day.
On the plus size (side), I have started watching Drop Dead Diva...and it gave me a little bit of laughter in this crazy day. Its a really good show. Wishing I was caught up on Glee so I could watch the new one. sad day. but anyways. so my point for today's blog is to let everyone know that while there are good days, like yesterday, there are also those days that are terrible...complete opposite. yen and yang. and let me just say this:
You know what bad day?? Forget you! Forget you and this nasty bug you brought with you. Go back to the depths of Hell and never return. You are no help to me or anyone else you try to ruin. Adios. Oh, and Satan? You can have your discouragement back. I dont need it. thanks for nothing!
peace out and the best of luck to any of those out there who are sick as well. no fun.
Monday, December 12, 2011
Looney for LUNA
Okay. So. I have been having a REALLY good day today. I know its technically only day 2, but come on, I'm super psyched! I got off really late last night, so I'm just proud of myself for not sleeping til noon and what not. I got up at 8a, drank my coffee, ate my cheerios, ect--watched my favorite weekday morning news--The Today Show....and by 9:30 i was like "I'm bored...gym time!" So i got ready and left. Went to the gym, did the ArcTrainer for 20 minutes! Thats 10 more minutes than I did the last (and first) time I did it. I was proud of myself for that accomplishment! I dont feel as bad either....i chock that up to the cheerios! lol jk. anywayss...so when I got done with that, I needed some refreshment...I stupidly left my water bottle at home, so after getting gas in my car, I went into publix. thank GOD i did!
I introduced myself to LUNA bars today. I had the PB cookie one and omg. best. nutrition. bar. EVER. its got folic acid, calcium, iron, ect....its a nutrition bar meant specifically for women! I can't wait to try the chocolate chunk one! Three cheers for nutritional items that mock the sugary treats I love so much! lol. They have a smores one that my sister says are really good...can't wait to get my hands on those! I also found my FAVORITE slim fast...the Cappachino Delight...they had stopped making them for a while...and now i found them, I'm SUPER stoked. :)
I also got a fruit bowl, and my new favorite greek yogurt....i think its made by Fage. I get the ones with the fruit stir ins...the Strawberry Goji and Blueberry Acai are really good...I'm super looking forward to trying the Mango Guanabana or something like that...and Cherry Pomegranate. :) but anyways. Like I said at the beginning--its been an awesome day so far. I'm totally looking forward to the journey ahead of me. Its gonna be a rough climb to the top of this mountain...but I'm gonna get there. No matter how much blood, sweat, and tears come out of this--I will press on. I will get through this; however, I wont be doing it alone. I have my amazing husband, my loving family, and all you guys out there. I'm planning on getting my full stats...inches, body fat, blood pressure, ect tested sometime this week or next...so once I get all that done, I'll post the stats...and once I get down about 40lbs, I'll test again and see just how much of a difference it is!
Anyways. tips, recipes, anything (except negativity) is greatly appreciated!!!
-Beth
I introduced myself to LUNA bars today. I had the PB cookie one and omg. best. nutrition. bar. EVER. its got folic acid, calcium, iron, ect....its a nutrition bar meant specifically for women! I can't wait to try the chocolate chunk one! Three cheers for nutritional items that mock the sugary treats I love so much! lol. They have a smores one that my sister says are really good...can't wait to get my hands on those! I also found my FAVORITE slim fast...the Cappachino Delight...they had stopped making them for a while...and now i found them, I'm SUPER stoked. :)
I also got a fruit bowl, and my new favorite greek yogurt....i think its made by Fage. I get the ones with the fruit stir ins...the Strawberry Goji and Blueberry Acai are really good...I'm super looking forward to trying the Mango Guanabana or something like that...and Cherry Pomegranate. :) but anyways. Like I said at the beginning--its been an awesome day so far. I'm totally looking forward to the journey ahead of me. Its gonna be a rough climb to the top of this mountain...but I'm gonna get there. No matter how much blood, sweat, and tears come out of this--I will press on. I will get through this; however, I wont be doing it alone. I have my amazing husband, my loving family, and all you guys out there. I'm planning on getting my full stats...inches, body fat, blood pressure, ect tested sometime this week or next...so once I get all that done, I'll post the stats...and once I get down about 40lbs, I'll test again and see just how much of a difference it is!
Anyways. tips, recipes, anything (except negativity) is greatly appreciated!!!
-Beth
Sunday, December 11, 2011
Awakening
Hello world!
I decided I would try blogging to help with my weight loss. I've been doing a lot of thinking and life would be so much easier for my husband, myself, and my future family if I got my weight down now. I've been overweight my entire life, and I'm finally ready to hunker down and lose this weight. Support, advice, anything you guys out there are willing to give would be helpful. So here goes...
I dont usually advertise how much I weigh...but I guess with my trying to get it down and trying to get support and what not...I kinda have to. LOL. So. My starting weight is officially 257lbs, which at a height of 65", that puts my BMI at a whopping 42.8. I am obese. as much as that scares me, I have to acknowledge that. I am in a size 22-24 pants/dresses....I wear XXL shirts....my ankles are constantly hurting....I have so many problems its not even funny. I'm lucky I'm not borderline diabetic. I know that when I get pregnant, if I am this heavy, I will have even more issues...mostly dealing wtih gestational diabetes, preeclampsia, ect. I need to get this down. Daniel, my husband, is helping me...but its gonna take a lot to keep me going. I LOVE ice cream, I have a crazy sweet tooth, and I get to be quite lazy after working...where I'd much rather grab fast food or order a pizza instead of cooking.
We are trying to cook better, and watching our portions. I've tried just about everything when it comes to weight loss...and my problem always ends up being that I don't stick with something. So world, this is where you come in. I've had an "awakening" of sorts; however, I need to be kept accountable. This is where I will be posting how my days have gone...my good and bad ones...this is where I'll post my feelings on everything...I dont need any negativity posted on here--my self esteem is already low enough. Shopping for an upcoming wedding hasn't really helped either. I dont fit in anything cute. -.- I'm 21 for heaven's sake, I should be having fun!
The Stats:
Current Weight--257
Current BMI--42.8
Current Waist--43
Current Hips--51
Current Bust--44B
Goal Weight--145
Should take me about a year and a half...If I do it right. Maybe a little bit sooner, depending on how often I can get myself to the gym, work factors, ect. So lets see how this works. I need to do this. I need to do it now. I want to do this without having surgery, like so many people out there. I believe that since I'm 21, I should be able to do this the right way. I know there are people out there that have no choice, and I am rooting for them. But I can do this the right way, before its too late. I will hopefully post at least weekly...unless there are some really bad days or really good days that I need to either vent or rave about. With Christmas around the corner, I'm a little scared it will set me back...but hopefully not too bad.
The best of luck to everyone out there trying to loose weight. I know we all need it.
Heres some links to a site that has some pretty good motivation and tips: Reddit Lose It and Reddit Fitness and Reddit Keto
--Beth
I decided I would try blogging to help with my weight loss. I've been doing a lot of thinking and life would be so much easier for my husband, myself, and my future family if I got my weight down now. I've been overweight my entire life, and I'm finally ready to hunker down and lose this weight. Support, advice, anything you guys out there are willing to give would be helpful. So here goes...
I dont usually advertise how much I weigh...but I guess with my trying to get it down and trying to get support and what not...I kinda have to. LOL. So. My starting weight is officially 257lbs, which at a height of 65", that puts my BMI at a whopping 42.8. I am obese. as much as that scares me, I have to acknowledge that. I am in a size 22-24 pants/dresses....I wear XXL shirts....my ankles are constantly hurting....I have so many problems its not even funny. I'm lucky I'm not borderline diabetic. I know that when I get pregnant, if I am this heavy, I will have even more issues...mostly dealing wtih gestational diabetes, preeclampsia, ect. I need to get this down. Daniel, my husband, is helping me...but its gonna take a lot to keep me going. I LOVE ice cream, I have a crazy sweet tooth, and I get to be quite lazy after working...where I'd much rather grab fast food or order a pizza instead of cooking.
We are trying to cook better, and watching our portions. I've tried just about everything when it comes to weight loss...and my problem always ends up being that I don't stick with something. So world, this is where you come in. I've had an "awakening" of sorts; however, I need to be kept accountable. This is where I will be posting how my days have gone...my good and bad ones...this is where I'll post my feelings on everything...I dont need any negativity posted on here--my self esteem is already low enough. Shopping for an upcoming wedding hasn't really helped either. I dont fit in anything cute. -.- I'm 21 for heaven's sake, I should be having fun!
The Stats:
Current Weight--257
Current BMI--42.8
Current Waist--43
Current Hips--51
Current Bust--44B
Goal Weight--145
Should take me about a year and a half...If I do it right. Maybe a little bit sooner, depending on how often I can get myself to the gym, work factors, ect. So lets see how this works. I need to do this. I need to do it now. I want to do this without having surgery, like so many people out there. I believe that since I'm 21, I should be able to do this the right way. I know there are people out there that have no choice, and I am rooting for them. But I can do this the right way, before its too late. I will hopefully post at least weekly...unless there are some really bad days or really good days that I need to either vent or rave about. With Christmas around the corner, I'm a little scared it will set me back...but hopefully not too bad.
Heres some links to a site that has some pretty good motivation and tips: Reddit Lose It and Reddit Fitness and Reddit Keto
--Beth
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