"You can be amazing, you can turn a phrase into a weapon or a drug. You can be the outcast, or be the backlash of somebody's lack of love. Or you can start speaking up. Nothing's gonna hurt you the way that words do when they settle 'neath your skin. Kept on the inside and no sunlight, sometimes a shadow wins. I wonder what would happen if you say what you wanna say, and let the words fall out--Honestly, I wanna see you be brave with what you wanna say and let the words fall out. Honestly, I wanna see you be brave."
--Brave by Sara Bareilles--
I came across this song about a week ago while I was trying to scramble to get new songs to workout to. I am sooo in love with it. It is saying everything I needed to be told for years. Be brave. Speak up. Dont let them walk all over you. I wish this song had come out while I was in high school....the Lord knows I just sat there quietly. Like Katy Perry says in "Roar:"
"I used to bite my tongue and hold my breath--scared to rock the boat and make a mess...So I sat quietly, agreed politely. I guess that I forgot I had a choice, I let you push me past my breaking point. I stood for nothing, so I fell for everything."
These two songs...they have really helped me over the past few weeks. I've been struggling with being here. I've been having a hard time... and these songs? They are awesome. Katy Perry is not usually one of my favorite go-to artists, but that song...idk. it hit home. because here? I'm over it. "you held me down, but I got up--already brushing off the dust.....you held me down, but i got up--get ready cuz i've had enough!" I mean, I'm ready. I'm working my butt off to lose this weight. i finally have the motivation, the strength, the courage. I'm ready to change.
I started this journey at a whopping 250+. I am currently at 227. 2 lbs away from losing 25. I could have probably been 50lbs down by now had I actually worked the entire 6 months I was at keesler, but...we all know how change goes. Here--theres nothing to do...so I workout. Well, I was working out...until I stupidly tried to run a 5k last week without "training up for it." -.- that was stupid. Though, I am proud of myself because I learned 2 things about myself:
1) I CAN RUN A 5K STRAIGHT! No walking!
2) I love running outside. Love it. never thought that would happen, haha.
I am a much stronger person than I was in high school. I've learned a lot over the past 5 years...wow..5 years since I graduated? dang. I'm getting old. lol. Daniel has had a lot to do with that. When I met him, I was still this shell of a person. Now? I am so much happier and I am so thankful for Daniel pulling me out of my "funk" and being as encouraging as he is. That one day we went out and ran together, he was constantly saying "Babe, if you just run a little farther, you would have run a whole mile," "come on baby, you have almost run a mile and a half without stopping! you got this," "babe! you just ran 2 whole miles without stopping! I am so proud of you!" he just didn't stop encouraging me the entire run. I have never had someone do that for me before, it showed me just how much he loves me. He's always encouraging me... I've never been more thankful. I couldn't do this without him and his support.
I say all this rambling because this is what it means to be brave. Taking a chance, a risk, and hoping that it will better you and those around you. You never know whats going to happen. Daniel joining the AF was brave--we dont know whats going to happen, but we trust God, and we went for it. Now we're stationed in GA, not our first pick, but I know we're here for a reason. Even if it was only to meet the amazing people I've met already. We are taking it one day at a time and making the most of our time here, even though the government has been stupid lately. This shutdown doesn't help my stress levels, thats for sure.
Anyways, I hope you guys all can agree--sometimes you have to be brave in order to achieve what you want. Even if that means standing up to the people who put you down, facing a problem you have been avoiding your whole life (like my weight), or just going after what you want. It takes a lot of courage to do that.
I hope you all have an amazing day. Be amazing. Be yourself.
Love you guys,
Beth
Thursday, October 10, 2013
Thursday, October 3, 2013
Life is what YOU make it.
Hah, everytime I hear those words I automatically go into the whole "Life's what you make it so lets make it ROCK!" from Hannah Montana. Yes I used to watch that show. No I'm not ashamed.... lol
Anyways. That phrase is something I've really had to put into play the past few weeks. As you guys know, we have officially PCSed to Georgia or "the big peach" as people call it. Its strange. Everything went okay with the move, but once we got here I felt like the world was falling apart. We had bought a new car while we were home for those two weeks, and as soon as we get to GA and get in our house the dealership was calling with a million problems telling us we were going to have to come BACK to AL to re-fill out all the paper work. that was stressful. We had never bought a car before, so it was really frustrating.
We ended up getting everything sorted out, but it took me a good 2 weeks to start adjusting. There wasn't a day out of those first 2 weeks here that I didn't cry. I felt so alone, so upset, so depressed. I missed my friends from keesler. I missed being so close to a beach. I missed our beautiful house there. I HATED this base. I hated everything about it those first couple weeks. There are days now that I still have this piece of hatred for GA. I dont know why I hate it so much, or hated it rather.
I'm doing better now. I'm going to the gym again, which has made me feel a ton better. I've got a friend here already (thank God for a mutual friend who set us up!), I'm learning my way around....and I was just getting content with the fact that I could go to the store whenever because it is within walking distance...when...GOVERNMENT SHUTDOWN. Seriously? *sigh* one thing after another, lol. Luckily, we're one of the few bases that has other forms of grocery stores nearby. I feel bad for my friends who have to drive 45 min + to the nearest grocery store because their commissary shut down. :\ this is all so childish.
We have a lake in our neighborhood (that also happens to be home to a decently sized alligator--YIKES), but its so pretty in the mornings when the sun is coming up. We have stables on base that we get to run by when we do our 5k trail---as most of you know I love horses, so this is awesome. We are slowly acclimating to Daniel's schedule...though every time we get used to it, something else changes. haha. We've been doing good on our eating the past few weeks and have only gotten fast food 2 times since all the moving stuff finished...which is excellent for us. :)
Titan is doing good--as big of a dork as he ever has been. We're still frustrated that we dont have a fence, nor do we have the money to get a fence. Taking him out is a real pain in the butt....especially because he wants to chase the birds in our backyard, play with the kids next door, try to play with the neighbor's dog. -.- every. 5. minutes. haha.
we do have a forest across a creek from our backyard and every once in a while when we're taking Titan out in the morning we see deer! :) its sooo cool! Though i think it may be dangerous here in a few months. haha.
I think my biggest thing about here is its more permanent than Keesler. With Keesler, we were only there for 6 months. Here? 2 years minimum. We're hoping we go somewhere else after 2 years, but with the military you never know. We're hoping for FL, CO, Italy, England, or Japan next. sooo we'll see what happens. For now, I'm going to continue making the best out of this base. Despite the mean people who run me over at the commissary or glare at me at the gym... I will enjoy myself. Daniel and I have a lot of cool things we can go do (Greek festival coming up the 18th-20th in macon that we're excited about).... and there are options for date nights not far from base, so we'll enjoy ourselves.
We plan on coming home the week of Christmas. I'm hoping he can get leave on the 18th-28th that way we can go do something for our anniversary since last year he was at BMT. :)
Anyways, sorry for the ramble..just thought I'd update everyone and let ya'll know that no matter how crappy you may think something is, its only as crappy as you make it. So make the most of it. Especially if you're stuck there for 2 years! haha.
love you guys!
Anyways. That phrase is something I've really had to put into play the past few weeks. As you guys know, we have officially PCSed to Georgia or "the big peach" as people call it. Its strange. Everything went okay with the move, but once we got here I felt like the world was falling apart. We had bought a new car while we were home for those two weeks, and as soon as we get to GA and get in our house the dealership was calling with a million problems telling us we were going to have to come BACK to AL to re-fill out all the paper work. that was stressful. We had never bought a car before, so it was really frustrating.
We ended up getting everything sorted out, but it took me a good 2 weeks to start adjusting. There wasn't a day out of those first 2 weeks here that I didn't cry. I felt so alone, so upset, so depressed. I missed my friends from keesler. I missed being so close to a beach. I missed our beautiful house there. I HATED this base. I hated everything about it those first couple weeks. There are days now that I still have this piece of hatred for GA. I dont know why I hate it so much, or hated it rather.
I'm doing better now. I'm going to the gym again, which has made me feel a ton better. I've got a friend here already (thank God for a mutual friend who set us up!), I'm learning my way around....and I was just getting content with the fact that I could go to the store whenever because it is within walking distance...when...GOVERNMENT SHUTDOWN. Seriously? *sigh* one thing after another, lol. Luckily, we're one of the few bases that has other forms of grocery stores nearby. I feel bad for my friends who have to drive 45 min + to the nearest grocery store because their commissary shut down. :\ this is all so childish.
We have a lake in our neighborhood (that also happens to be home to a decently sized alligator--YIKES), but its so pretty in the mornings when the sun is coming up. We have stables on base that we get to run by when we do our 5k trail---as most of you know I love horses, so this is awesome. We are slowly acclimating to Daniel's schedule...though every time we get used to it, something else changes. haha. We've been doing good on our eating the past few weeks and have only gotten fast food 2 times since all the moving stuff finished...which is excellent for us. :)
Titan is doing good--as big of a dork as he ever has been. We're still frustrated that we dont have a fence, nor do we have the money to get a fence. Taking him out is a real pain in the butt....especially because he wants to chase the birds in our backyard, play with the kids next door, try to play with the neighbor's dog. -.- every. 5. minutes. haha.
we do have a forest across a creek from our backyard and every once in a while when we're taking Titan out in the morning we see deer! :) its sooo cool! Though i think it may be dangerous here in a few months. haha.
I think my biggest thing about here is its more permanent than Keesler. With Keesler, we were only there for 6 months. Here? 2 years minimum. We're hoping we go somewhere else after 2 years, but with the military you never know. We're hoping for FL, CO, Italy, England, or Japan next. sooo we'll see what happens. For now, I'm going to continue making the best out of this base. Despite the mean people who run me over at the commissary or glare at me at the gym... I will enjoy myself. Daniel and I have a lot of cool things we can go do (Greek festival coming up the 18th-20th in macon that we're excited about).... and there are options for date nights not far from base, so we'll enjoy ourselves.
We plan on coming home the week of Christmas. I'm hoping he can get leave on the 18th-28th that way we can go do something for our anniversary since last year he was at BMT. :)
Anyways, sorry for the ramble..just thought I'd update everyone and let ya'll know that no matter how crappy you may think something is, its only as crappy as you make it. So make the most of it. Especially if you're stuck there for 2 years! haha.
love you guys!
Monday, August 12, 2013
The list goes on as life comes fast.
Phew. its been a busy past few months, especially the last few weeks. we're getting ready to move next week..... yea, thats right. NEXT WEEK. its been bonkers around here lately! Daniel started block 11 (his last block at tech school) on Friday and graduates next Tuesday. We start our trek back home next Wednesday. While I am excited to get home, I'm also apprehensive.
Its going to be great to go home and see everyone, but I am just ready to get to Robins, get everything settled and get back into a routine. I had gotten so good about being on a routine...then moving stuff started coming faster and faster and before I knew it, I had no time left for the gym or to just do things I want to do...like lay out on the beach. i'm really hoping we go to a beach this coming weekend since its our last weekend here...but who knows. I'm so ready for a normal routine. no more weird schedules of 3a-4p or 2p to midnight. Daniel will be on a "normal" schedule most days of 730-430, unless theres something big coming up or something like that. i cannot wait! we're gonna try to get in the habit of working out together...haven't quite decided when that will be just yet, but we're not there yet--so i'm assuming we'll figure it out once we get there. :)
I'm slowly coming to grips with the fact that Robins is where we're headed, theres no changing bases this close to the move.... so i'm trying to make the most of it. i found out that there is a dance studio that teaches adult dance classes ( i miss dance, and i think it will also aide in the weight loss)...so I'm excited to try a couple of those... I plan on becoming a member of the Enlisted Spouses Club there and going to meetings, as well as they are starting a "change my life" plan a couple weeks after we get there...which is basically a weight loss challenge. :) The annual Air Force Ball is also a couple weeks after we get there...not entirely sure if we'll go this year, but we will go next year if we dont go this year! :)
Its been a crazy ride so far in the USAF life. Definitely not something I'm used to, but I'm slowly getting used to it. Its strange....I look back 3 years ago...Daniel and I were newlyweds...we had no idea this is where God would lead us, but we are grateful he has led us here. We are so much better off now than before he enlisted, and we are learning new things daily. i've definitely gained some patience through all of this. Which in itself is probably one of the main reasons God led us to the AF--to teach me some PATIENCE. I've never been good at being patient... lol.
I've also met some wonderful people down here. I'm going to miss them. I'm not going to lie, i'm probably going to bawl my eyes out the day we leave. Hah, i'm getting teary-eyed just thinking about it. These girls have been amazing...we've been crazy, talked shit, laughed, cried, ranted, raved, almost died in random accidents due to MS crazy drivers...................sometimes that crazy driver being me. ;) We've made friendships that will hopefully last a lifetime...and hopefully we'll see each other again one day...if not because we get stationed at the same base its because i fly out to UT and we drive to CA. hahaha. and then maybe a quick hop over to Japan. man. this is crazy.
I know I'll make friends at Robins... i always do....I kinda have already through the spouses page (thank GOD)....and I'm glad I'll have 2 years with them instead of only 5 months. These past 5 months with these girls has been awesome. Even if we met because i was scared of my car drowning on the way to pick up my husband....or we met because I stalked you on facebook because my husband was already friends with yours...or if we met through a facebook group and talked for months before you actually got here. Making friends comes easy to me--it always has....but its the ones that change you that stick with you. Like my best friend Ashley back home....god I miss her...I can't wait to see her in a couple weeks! I know I'm always going to have these friends. We may not always talk, but they're there and they know that I'm always here if they ever need me. I'm going to miss you guys.
I guess I better stop being my usual sappy self and go do some cleaning/packing/organizing... i really want a nap though. lol gonna be a busy rest of my week, but I wouldn't change it for the world. I'm so proud of my husband and all he has accomplished and I can't wait to pin his career badge on next Tuesday. :)
for now, I bid you adieu. Next time you hear from me, I'll be at Robins. :)
-beth
Its going to be great to go home and see everyone, but I am just ready to get to Robins, get everything settled and get back into a routine. I had gotten so good about being on a routine...then moving stuff started coming faster and faster and before I knew it, I had no time left for the gym or to just do things I want to do...like lay out on the beach. i'm really hoping we go to a beach this coming weekend since its our last weekend here...but who knows. I'm so ready for a normal routine. no more weird schedules of 3a-4p or 2p to midnight. Daniel will be on a "normal" schedule most days of 730-430, unless theres something big coming up or something like that. i cannot wait! we're gonna try to get in the habit of working out together...haven't quite decided when that will be just yet, but we're not there yet--so i'm assuming we'll figure it out once we get there. :)
I'm slowly coming to grips with the fact that Robins is where we're headed, theres no changing bases this close to the move.... so i'm trying to make the most of it. i found out that there is a dance studio that teaches adult dance classes ( i miss dance, and i think it will also aide in the weight loss)...so I'm excited to try a couple of those... I plan on becoming a member of the Enlisted Spouses Club there and going to meetings, as well as they are starting a "change my life" plan a couple weeks after we get there...which is basically a weight loss challenge. :) The annual Air Force Ball is also a couple weeks after we get there...not entirely sure if we'll go this year, but we will go next year if we dont go this year! :)
Its been a crazy ride so far in the USAF life. Definitely not something I'm used to, but I'm slowly getting used to it. Its strange....I look back 3 years ago...Daniel and I were newlyweds...we had no idea this is where God would lead us, but we are grateful he has led us here. We are so much better off now than before he enlisted, and we are learning new things daily. i've definitely gained some patience through all of this. Which in itself is probably one of the main reasons God led us to the AF--to teach me some PATIENCE. I've never been good at being patient... lol.
I've also met some wonderful people down here. I'm going to miss them. I'm not going to lie, i'm probably going to bawl my eyes out the day we leave. Hah, i'm getting teary-eyed just thinking about it. These girls have been amazing...we've been crazy, talked shit, laughed, cried, ranted, raved, almost died in random accidents due to MS crazy drivers...................sometimes that crazy driver being me. ;) We've made friendships that will hopefully last a lifetime...and hopefully we'll see each other again one day...if not because we get stationed at the same base its because i fly out to UT and we drive to CA. hahaha. and then maybe a quick hop over to Japan. man. this is crazy.
I know I'll make friends at Robins... i always do....I kinda have already through the spouses page (thank GOD)....and I'm glad I'll have 2 years with them instead of only 5 months. These past 5 months with these girls has been awesome. Even if we met because i was scared of my car drowning on the way to pick up my husband....or we met because I stalked you on facebook because my husband was already friends with yours...or if we met through a facebook group and talked for months before you actually got here. Making friends comes easy to me--it always has....but its the ones that change you that stick with you. Like my best friend Ashley back home....god I miss her...I can't wait to see her in a couple weeks! I know I'm always going to have these friends. We may not always talk, but they're there and they know that I'm always here if they ever need me. I'm going to miss you guys.
I guess I better stop being my usual sappy self and go do some cleaning/packing/organizing... i really want a nap though. lol gonna be a busy rest of my week, but I wouldn't change it for the world. I'm so proud of my husband and all he has accomplished and I can't wait to pin his career badge on next Tuesday. :)
for now, I bid you adieu. Next time you hear from me, I'll be at Robins. :)
-beth
Tuesday, May 14, 2013
Finding the Silver Linings
Life can be fun, it can be hard, it can be amazing, it can suck. Whatever it is, its life. You can't run away from it, you can't hide, you can't change it...so you have to deal with it. I recently watched Silver Linings Playbook (eh. it was decent, but my friend and I found it much funnier than it was intended)... and it got me thinking--there is always some silver lining to whatever hardship/change you may face in life.
The biggest one Daniel and I are facing right now? His orders. While its not the worst base in the world, it DEFINITELY was NOT on our list, nor do we really want to go there. :( We shall be PCSing to Robins AFB in GA (and by GA, i mean the middle of nowhere-GA. -.-) in September. We should get 2 weeks of RAP (recruiter assistance program) before then...and daniel's est grad date from Keesler is August 20. But anyways...
While its not really all that bad of a base to go to, we really dont want to go. :( We were going to trade with someone in his class, but EVERYONE got the same thing. which I guess is good on some levels and bad on others. We've been trying to find the silver linings of being "stuck in the south." (we are so sick of being in the south its not even funny. -.-)
PROS:
1) not a far PCS...which will make moving easier and getting our stuff quicker
2) if we decide to start a family, we're not too terribly far from our families
3) we will have a smaller house--yes this is a PRO...i feel like our 3br is WAYY too much house for us. lol
4) Its only 3 hours from Savannah, Tybee Island, Hilton Head, Atlanta....soo weekend getaways aren't too far of a drive...
5) we dont have to ship our pup.
CONS:
1) we're stuck in the south...which we are sick of.
2) its considered "the middle of nowhere" for GA
3) its just far enough to keep me from driving to thanksgiving this year. :(
4) Daniel will most likely have several TDY while we are there (mini deployments--6mo or less)
5) its GA. lol
Bah. like I said. we're still trying to see the silver linings in all of this. The orders could change, but probably wont, so we are just learning to live with it. needless to say--GA is NOT worth leaving Keesler for and we will be sorry to pack up and leave our beautiful beach home. haha. on a plus side, we'll get a little more money there, so that helps.
On another positive note, i'm down to 231.6--thats a new low for me! hoping to be down in the 220s by next Monday. :D i did compare face pics today:
L) Dec 19,2010--our first anniversary:: R) yesterday morning...lbs lost since then--about 20 maybe a little more, i can't exactly remember how much i weighed back then. i think i was between 250 and 260... so it may be a little more than 20lbs. :D i was thoroughly surprised at the difference thou! :D
I am trying really hard. Moving did NOT help...nor did the first few weeks of "i dont feel like making a menu, lets go out to eat" mentality. haha. We're doing better now. Daniel is on "T-Shift" which is where he goes to class from 300p to midnight every day, so instead of eating a super heavy dinner at 6 or 7, we eat a rather large lunch around 1230-1 every day. :) that definitely helps. though my sleep schedule is completely thrown out of whack. lol. i'm still getting used to it, but its getting easier. he's been on T-Shift for about 2 weeks now. I have also started finding things (other than cleaning) to keep me occupied. I have 2 awesome friends down here and we keep each other busy. One of my friends is teaching me how to draw/paint. I think i'm failing but she keeps repeating to me "beauty is in the eye of the beholder". haha. i think my paintings suck. daniel said they're good though. and practice makes perfect, right? Also, i've learned how to make paracord bracelets:
if you want one, i think i'm gonna charge like...$2, but will make them to your color/size specifications. :D message me if you want more info--they are a lot of fun to make!
so anyways. i mean that pretty much sums up our lives right now. We've had a time and a half getting a dog though. We had one puppy, and he died of hookworm anemia. :( that was rough...so then we went to the humane society and found the prettiest german shepherd......who was crazy. -.- she bit my neck. she was 3 months old. what the?! lol so... we took her back...got a "voucher" to get another puppy. now we are just waiting to see what happens. :) its been a time and a half...and a ton of money out the window--(btw if a dog dies on a table during a blood transfusion--you still have to pay for whatever they got done. -.- i think thats sad. as if its not hard enough to lose a dog, but to make them spend a crap ton of money? ridiculous.) but i like our vet, she's nice.
we are getting a washer and dryer on Saturday and I am SO excited. I hate laundromats. with a firy burning passion. -.- i hope I never have to use one again. they are a pain in the butt. We are getting our set from a neighbor down the street who is moving to Germany, so they can't take it with them. We got lucky that she was suppperr sweet and willing to go down on price to fit our budget. It definitely helps. :) but anyways. i think thats about it for today. I need to do some cleaning and organizing before VOLLEYBALL tonight. (oh yeah i joined a volleyball spouses group down here... i am TERRIFIED. lol but i hear its a good workout, and one of my neighbors asked me to try it out...soooooo here goes nothing?!) I hope i dont fail miserably. i'm probably going to be EXHAUSTED tomorrow though. lol. and I've got a Cocktails and Canvas on Friday with some of the spouses. It is going to be fantastic. I'm finding little things here and there to keep me busy. :)
Also--my bestest friend is coming to visit on June 2! I AM SO EXCITED. like seriously. She is coming from the 2nd-5th!!! I can't wait. I've missed my bestie!
All in all--things are looking up...heres to hoping his orders change, but at the same time, eh--it could be worse. lol have a great rest of your day/week!
adios
Friday, April 19, 2013
"In Sickness and in health."
Those are generally words you hear in a person's vows to their beloved on their wedding day. I said it to my husband the day we said "I do" and many other people have said it as well...
Today as I was thinking on the past 3 years of our marriage, I came to think that those words do not just pertain to marriage. They are fully relevant to EVERY aspect of our lives. Our marriage, our friendships, our commitments, our jobs, ect.
For me? Aside from my marriage...this is especially relevant to my weight loss. I have had so many ups and downs over the last few years with my weight...and the one BIG excuse was "i'm sick." When Daniel and I were first married and i "tried" to lose weight, I got sick. Not deathly ill...just...a cold. What did I do? i used that cold as an excuse to stop working out...to stop eating right... to continue eating all the comfort foods in the world. Its a cycle that I have continually fought over the last 8 years of my life (since I was 14) and it always happens. Every. Single. Time.
Except....this past time. :)
I have finally broken through that cycle and it feels SO GOOD. I may not have worked out while I was sick, but I still did something. I didn't sit around on my butt or lay on my bed/couch and sleep away every day. I got up, cleaned, did laundry, cooked dinners for Daniel and I, got myself to the dr and got meds, and still managed to have time to rest a little to allow my body to recoup. I walked on Monday instead of going to the gym. I felt miserable, was exhausted, but I kept on. I haven't let it get to my eating either. I ALMOST let it get to me last night...(we almost ordered chinese takeout because I was just notttt wanting to cook), but when I thought about it...and thought about the 2.17 miles that I had walked/jogged earlier that day...when i thought about how GOOD I had been while I was sick.... i realized it wasn't worth it. I pouted for a while (because i'm still getting used to the new me... *sigh* i think i fight myself more than i've fought a sibling....thats sad. haha) and then realized that I had made the right choice and instead went and got a bowl of raisin bran and my new guilty pleasure of Stacy's Cinnamon Sugar Pita Chips (holy crap they are sooo good, they remind me a lot of taco bell's cinnamon twists, but so much healthier for you!!!!).
I have learned so much just while Daniel was at BMT. About myself, about our relationship, about life in general. Its amazing how being apart for so long can make you really appreciate everything you have. I have to say, for the way everyone kept saying "oh you wont make it past year one" when we first got married, wow... way to have faith in us and in God. We have one of the best relationships, and I am so So SOOO thankful for it. We communicate about anything and everything. We talk. And boy did I miss that while he was gone. We both would get frustrated when he first got here to Keesler because, even though we could communicate, it wasn't as well as what we were used to. It was only when he got a minute, and if he could get signal/good internet. it sucked. texting for a whole month? doesn't really do much for me.
I am so thankful to have the opportunity to be living with him while he's here at tech school. I have no idea what we would have done had I been forced to stay at home for the next 6 months. God has blessed us so incredibly much while we've been here too. I've made a really good friend with one of his friends' wife... we do our laundry together every tuesday and (aside from this week cuz we've both been sick) we go to the gym on MWF to workout. :) She's awesome. I've also picked up a few babysitting jobs here in the neighborhood, and that helps. Its not a full time job, but I don't need full time..just a little bit on the side to help with everyday expenses and/or random dates, ect. :) i also have gotten us quite a few good deals on a recliner (free), desk (10), and coffee table (10)... just from keeping my eyes and ears open.
It looks like we'll be coming home for RAP (recruiter assistance program) around September 15th...ish. Dont book me on it though because with the military, anything and everything is bound to change up until the day we arrive. haha. We also do not know where we are going yet. We should find out here in the next 4-6 weeks. (hopefully closer to the 4 week mark).
I do have some new goals for you guys and an update on my weight as well. :D Which I haven't really done lately mainly because of all this moving stuff has wreaked havoc on my weight loss. haha.
I am currently 234 (as of Wednesday when I went to the dr.). Thats a total of 16lbs lost. I would like to be under 200 by August 1. I believe it is possible, especially with my awesome hubby. He runs with me on Saturdays and helps push me to go further, hold my planks longer, and just encourages me day in and day out. :) my hero AND my cheerleader. best of both worlds! We also are planning to run a 5k at his first duty station. Once we figure out where we are going, we're gonna look into ones where we can run together in that area and sign up. I'm SO EXCITED. Its been a dream of mine for the past year or so for us to run together. (hence why i enjoy our saturday excursions in the neighborhood. haha)
We are so thankful and blessed to be down here. It is beautiful (when its not a nasty rainy day like today! haha) and so much fun. Its also amazing to just be us. by ourselves. in our own HOME. its so weird and awesome all at the same time. :)
anyways. i best get back to cleaning. :) hope you all had a fantastic week and have a great weekend! I'll post more whenever i have something new to update with or whenever i think about it next--haha it just comes randomly to me nowadays!
love ya'll!
-Beth-
Today as I was thinking on the past 3 years of our marriage, I came to think that those words do not just pertain to marriage. They are fully relevant to EVERY aspect of our lives. Our marriage, our friendships, our commitments, our jobs, ect.
For me? Aside from my marriage...this is especially relevant to my weight loss. I have had so many ups and downs over the last few years with my weight...and the one BIG excuse was "i'm sick." When Daniel and I were first married and i "tried" to lose weight, I got sick. Not deathly ill...just...a cold. What did I do? i used that cold as an excuse to stop working out...to stop eating right... to continue eating all the comfort foods in the world. Its a cycle that I have continually fought over the last 8 years of my life (since I was 14) and it always happens. Every. Single. Time.
Except....this past time. :)
I have finally broken through that cycle and it feels SO GOOD. I may not have worked out while I was sick, but I still did something. I didn't sit around on my butt or lay on my bed/couch and sleep away every day. I got up, cleaned, did laundry, cooked dinners for Daniel and I, got myself to the dr and got meds, and still managed to have time to rest a little to allow my body to recoup. I walked on Monday instead of going to the gym. I felt miserable, was exhausted, but I kept on. I haven't let it get to my eating either. I ALMOST let it get to me last night...(we almost ordered chinese takeout because I was just notttt wanting to cook), but when I thought about it...and thought about the 2.17 miles that I had walked/jogged earlier that day...when i thought about how GOOD I had been while I was sick.... i realized it wasn't worth it. I pouted for a while (because i'm still getting used to the new me... *sigh* i think i fight myself more than i've fought a sibling....thats sad. haha) and then realized that I had made the right choice and instead went and got a bowl of raisin bran and my new guilty pleasure of Stacy's Cinnamon Sugar Pita Chips (holy crap they are sooo good, they remind me a lot of taco bell's cinnamon twists, but so much healthier for you!!!!).
I have learned so much just while Daniel was at BMT. About myself, about our relationship, about life in general. Its amazing how being apart for so long can make you really appreciate everything you have. I have to say, for the way everyone kept saying "oh you wont make it past year one" when we first got married, wow... way to have faith in us and in God. We have one of the best relationships, and I am so So SOOO thankful for it. We communicate about anything and everything. We talk. And boy did I miss that while he was gone. We both would get frustrated when he first got here to Keesler because, even though we could communicate, it wasn't as well as what we were used to. It was only when he got a minute, and if he could get signal/good internet. it sucked. texting for a whole month? doesn't really do much for me.
I am so thankful to have the opportunity to be living with him while he's here at tech school. I have no idea what we would have done had I been forced to stay at home for the next 6 months. God has blessed us so incredibly much while we've been here too. I've made a really good friend with one of his friends' wife... we do our laundry together every tuesday and (aside from this week cuz we've both been sick) we go to the gym on MWF to workout. :) She's awesome. I've also picked up a few babysitting jobs here in the neighborhood, and that helps. Its not a full time job, but I don't need full time..just a little bit on the side to help with everyday expenses and/or random dates, ect. :) i also have gotten us quite a few good deals on a recliner (free), desk (10), and coffee table (10)... just from keeping my eyes and ears open.
It looks like we'll be coming home for RAP (recruiter assistance program) around September 15th...ish. Dont book me on it though because with the military, anything and everything is bound to change up until the day we arrive. haha. We also do not know where we are going yet. We should find out here in the next 4-6 weeks. (hopefully closer to the 4 week mark).
I do have some new goals for you guys and an update on my weight as well. :D Which I haven't really done lately mainly because of all this moving stuff has wreaked havoc on my weight loss. haha.
I am currently 234 (as of Wednesday when I went to the dr.). Thats a total of 16lbs lost. I would like to be under 200 by August 1. I believe it is possible, especially with my awesome hubby. He runs with me on Saturdays and helps push me to go further, hold my planks longer, and just encourages me day in and day out. :) my hero AND my cheerleader. best of both worlds! We also are planning to run a 5k at his first duty station. Once we figure out where we are going, we're gonna look into ones where we can run together in that area and sign up. I'm SO EXCITED. Its been a dream of mine for the past year or so for us to run together. (hence why i enjoy our saturday excursions in the neighborhood. haha)
We are so thankful and blessed to be down here. It is beautiful (when its not a nasty rainy day like today! haha) and so much fun. Its also amazing to just be us. by ourselves. in our own HOME. its so weird and awesome all at the same time. :)
anyways. i best get back to cleaning. :) hope you all had a fantastic week and have a great weekend! I'll post more whenever i have something new to update with or whenever i think about it next--haha it just comes randomly to me nowadays!
love ya'll!
-Beth-
Tuesday, April 9, 2013
Busy, busy me
Goodnesssss! I've been busy since moving down here (as it was to be expected)!! soo now..3 weeks later, i'm finally posting a blog. :D The move went smoothly, I got down here, and now Daniel is living with me! (He got SEPRAT last week). It is a good feeling to be living together again. Sure, getting up at 4a isn't easy--and its about to be even earlier... but i wouldn't trade it for the world. every minute i get with him, I'm soaking it up...we don't know what the future may hold. At the moment, we are both just enjoying being together...for the past 3 weeks, my main goal is to make sure the house is clean and that i have a dinner plan for whatever night it may be. I also have to go to the laundromat to do laundry (which is a pain in my ass, to tell you the truth--there is so much i could get done when i'm stuck there for 2 hours bored out of my mind!)...and i'm desperately searching for a decent priced washer and dryer. If we knew where we were going, we would probably purchase a brand new set from Lowe's or something...but we don't know where we'll get stationed and if its overseas--we can't take it with us. booo. so for now, i'm scouring craigslist and various fb pages for a set...with no luck.
Last week I attempted to start back working out...did C25K on Monday...thennnnnn the rest of the week went to the toilet. It rained for 2 days, i was sick for 2 days... and so yeah.. HOWEVER. One of Daniel's friends here at Keesler is married--and his wife just got here this past Wednesday. SO HAPPY. :D We are starting "girl's PT" on MWF--which we did yesterday and BOTH OF US were sooo much happier afterwards. so yes. i started back. hooray! and now i have a workout buddy so its gonna be harder to back out! lol thats a good thing. so on MWF, I'll be doing elliptical/stationary bike and my weights routine (which i am so incredibly sore and so thankful that Lori and Elle told me to start back with 5-lb weights because i would have died if i had attempted 8-lbs!!!!) and then on Tu/Th/Sa I'll be doing C25K and/or walking the neighborhood twice. (its about 1.25mi for the circuit i do...sooo thats 2.5 mi if i do it twice) and on Saturdays, Daniel said he would do it with me--so that will help. :)
Daniel and I are also starting a date night regimen...since we're trying to conserve and save money--we're doing it every other down friday (so 1x month), and those will be planned date nights and we will alternate who plans it. :) then on the other down fridays, we'll still go to dinner, but that one will be a joint effort. haha we want to try some of the local hole-in-the-wall restaurants...so that will be a good way to do it. :) down fridays are great days--and now they just got even better! hahahaha.
We have been to the beach once already, and it is beautiful. we are sooo incredibly lucky to be stationed down here through the summer (i may take that statement back here in the next couple months when the temps reach 98-100...buttttt for now, i love it!) We can't wait to go back to the beach once the water warms up. It was FREEZING. we like...put our feet in it...then were like "nope" and went and laid out on our towels and read. very relaxing. :) its nice to just be us. We haven't had this much alone time in FOREVER. its nice. I'm thoroughly enjoying it thats for sure! :) as for everything else, well...there really isn't much to say about it. haha. Our house is beautiful, and its weird to have a house. lol. we even have a small backyard...that is mostly sand and weeds...but its a yard! haha. we have some pictures up and we, for the most part, have our little house set up. :) theres a few things here and there that still need to be done or unpacked, but for now, we're good.
I did find out that we should know where his first duty station is in June sometime...so... i just have to wait 2 more months. haha. I think we're both anxious to find out. We decided that anywhere we go we'll be happy as long as those orders say ACCOMPANIED (meaning I can go). lol we're not quite ready for him to be deployed just yet. We know its a possibility, we also know theres a high chance of it... but we can hope and pray that they hold off a year before sending him off. haha
thus begins our lives as a true military family--nothing is guaranteed, nothing is set in stone, nothing happens fast, everything can change in the turn of a hat, and everything is a big HURRY UP AND WAIT. lol. but its our life, and we do what we can. As long as we have each other, we will be a-o.k. :D
and i do believe this concludes today's post. :) but i'll leave ya'll with a couple pics of the house. :) i will try to post again as soon as i remember. haha or something changes.
Last week I attempted to start back working out...did C25K on Monday...thennnnnn the rest of the week went to the toilet. It rained for 2 days, i was sick for 2 days... and so yeah.. HOWEVER. One of Daniel's friends here at Keesler is married--and his wife just got here this past Wednesday. SO HAPPY. :D We are starting "girl's PT" on MWF--which we did yesterday and BOTH OF US were sooo much happier afterwards. so yes. i started back. hooray! and now i have a workout buddy so its gonna be harder to back out! lol thats a good thing. so on MWF, I'll be doing elliptical/stationary bike and my weights routine (which i am so incredibly sore and so thankful that Lori and Elle told me to start back with 5-lb weights because i would have died if i had attempted 8-lbs!!!!) and then on Tu/Th/Sa I'll be doing C25K and/or walking the neighborhood twice. (its about 1.25mi for the circuit i do...sooo thats 2.5 mi if i do it twice) and on Saturdays, Daniel said he would do it with me--so that will help. :)
Daniel and I are also starting a date night regimen...since we're trying to conserve and save money--we're doing it every other down friday (so 1x month), and those will be planned date nights and we will alternate who plans it. :) then on the other down fridays, we'll still go to dinner, but that one will be a joint effort. haha we want to try some of the local hole-in-the-wall restaurants...so that will be a good way to do it. :) down fridays are great days--and now they just got even better! hahahaha.
We have been to the beach once already, and it is beautiful. we are sooo incredibly lucky to be stationed down here through the summer (i may take that statement back here in the next couple months when the temps reach 98-100...buttttt for now, i love it!) We can't wait to go back to the beach once the water warms up. It was FREEZING. we like...put our feet in it...then were like "nope" and went and laid out on our towels and read. very relaxing. :) its nice to just be us. We haven't had this much alone time in FOREVER. its nice. I'm thoroughly enjoying it thats for sure! :) as for everything else, well...there really isn't much to say about it. haha. Our house is beautiful, and its weird to have a house. lol. we even have a small backyard...that is mostly sand and weeds...but its a yard! haha. we have some pictures up and we, for the most part, have our little house set up. :) theres a few things here and there that still need to be done or unpacked, but for now, we're good.
I did find out that we should know where his first duty station is in June sometime...so... i just have to wait 2 more months. haha. I think we're both anxious to find out. We decided that anywhere we go we'll be happy as long as those orders say ACCOMPANIED (meaning I can go). lol we're not quite ready for him to be deployed just yet. We know its a possibility, we also know theres a high chance of it... but we can hope and pray that they hold off a year before sending him off. haha
thus begins our lives as a true military family--nothing is guaranteed, nothing is set in stone, nothing happens fast, everything can change in the turn of a hat, and everything is a big HURRY UP AND WAIT. lol. but its our life, and we do what we can. As long as we have each other, we will be a-o.k. :D
and i do believe this concludes today's post. :) but i'll leave ya'll with a couple pics of the house. :) i will try to post again as soon as i remember. haha or something changes.
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| the front of our little home |
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| us standing in front of our front door. :) |
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| our itty bitty backyard. lol |
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| the kitchen! the little lip over the sink is actually a bar-area sorta..you can put barstools up to it |
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| our back patio |
Monday, March 18, 2013
Off we go into the wild blue yonder!
Good morning friends!
How are you all doing today? I am doing FANTASTIC. Tomorrow is the big day! MOVING DAY! I'm so excited! I still have a lot to do to get ready, but i'm sooooo excited! Making cinnamon rolls out of cresent rolls for breakfast this morning, gonna have a going away dinner with my family tonight (and my bestest friend, but we all include her in the "family" portion! lol). its gonna be a good day!
Tomorrow starts my journey! The movers will be here between 8a and 9a, they'll get me all packed up (which I don't forsee taking too terribly long--even they said they'd be done before 3 most definitely). Its gonna be fantastic! As soon as the movers leave, I'll be backing out of my driveway and saying "SEE YA!" to Huntsville! From here I'll be going to Tuscaloosa to see my brother. He's letting me stay the night there with him so I wouldn't have to drive the entire 6 hours at once! :) what a kind bro! :) i love going to see him in ttown and even now its gonna be a fantastically awesome time! I'm so excited! (i'm sure you guys are all picturing me sitting in my office chair bouncing up and down frantically---which is partially true. I'm trying to contain my excitement--but I'm going to see my husband in 2 days! you can't blame me for being excited!!!) hehe
Anyways--so I'll be staying with my brother in Tuscaloosa Tuesday night (heh, Tuscaloosa Tuesday! sounds like a band or song title. cool). Then I'll be getting up with him bright and early (he has to be at class at 8a), and I'll be heading to Biloxi! Should only take me about 4 hours, so I should be down there by noon (depends on where I get breakfast...probably just grabbing starbucks and hitting the road though--oh starbucks, how i love thee!) Once I get down there, I'll probably just toodle around waiting until I can check in at the hotel on base (which I am renting through Saturday--hopefully going to be able to extend through sunday so Daniel and I can spend some time together cuz he can't come back to the house with me). Once I can check in, i'll be going in to shower, put on makeup, and get ready for our appointment at 4! I'll be picking up Daniel at like...330 probably and then we'll head over to the housing office and do the walk through and sign our lease and get our keys! :D gonna be a good day! Then after that, we'll *hopefully* be able to go chill at the hotel for a bit... then grab a bite to eat for dinner...then i'll drop him off so he can get ready before he has to do details at 8p. I'm so excited, its not even funny. I'll get to spend the weekend with him, which makes me so much happier too. Just knowing that in 2 days I'll be with him FOR GOOD (well until (if) he gets deployed). We'll be able to be US again. its so exciting. He wont be able to live with me until mid-late april, but still. I'll be right there, so i can go see him on the weekends/weeknights (if he is able) and we can spend time together. :) Once he hits ATP (2nd phase), he can come to the house whenever he wants. :) that makes me happy.
But yeah. Wanted to post before leaving because I'm taking down my computer today and wont have it back up for a couple weeks. I'll have my phone and my netbook, but posting a blog on either of those is a pain in the butt. lol. I am so ready to be with my husband, its not even funny. I miss him tons. Its been 4 weeks since we were together last. Sure we get to skype/talk on the phone, but its sooo not the same. Especially with signal and internet being crap. Anywho...
I guess this is it! The next time you guys hear from me, I'll be sitting in my house in Biloxi, enjoying the fact that I am only 5 minutes from my husband versus 6 hours. :) gonna be nice!
Hope you guys have a fantastic day!
How are you all doing today? I am doing FANTASTIC. Tomorrow is the big day! MOVING DAY! I'm so excited! I still have a lot to do to get ready, but i'm sooooo excited! Making cinnamon rolls out of cresent rolls for breakfast this morning, gonna have a going away dinner with my family tonight (and my bestest friend, but we all include her in the "family" portion! lol). its gonna be a good day!
Tomorrow starts my journey! The movers will be here between 8a and 9a, they'll get me all packed up (which I don't forsee taking too terribly long--even they said they'd be done before 3 most definitely). Its gonna be fantastic! As soon as the movers leave, I'll be backing out of my driveway and saying "SEE YA!" to Huntsville! From here I'll be going to Tuscaloosa to see my brother. He's letting me stay the night there with him so I wouldn't have to drive the entire 6 hours at once! :) what a kind bro! :) i love going to see him in ttown and even now its gonna be a fantastically awesome time! I'm so excited! (i'm sure you guys are all picturing me sitting in my office chair bouncing up and down frantically---which is partially true. I'm trying to contain my excitement--but I'm going to see my husband in 2 days! you can't blame me for being excited!!!) hehe
Anyways--so I'll be staying with my brother in Tuscaloosa Tuesday night (heh, Tuscaloosa Tuesday! sounds like a band or song title. cool). Then I'll be getting up with him bright and early (he has to be at class at 8a), and I'll be heading to Biloxi! Should only take me about 4 hours, so I should be down there by noon (depends on where I get breakfast...probably just grabbing starbucks and hitting the road though--oh starbucks, how i love thee!) Once I get down there, I'll probably just toodle around waiting until I can check in at the hotel on base (which I am renting through Saturday--hopefully going to be able to extend through sunday so Daniel and I can spend some time together cuz he can't come back to the house with me). Once I can check in, i'll be going in to shower, put on makeup, and get ready for our appointment at 4! I'll be picking up Daniel at like...330 probably and then we'll head over to the housing office and do the walk through and sign our lease and get our keys! :D gonna be a good day! Then after that, we'll *hopefully* be able to go chill at the hotel for a bit... then grab a bite to eat for dinner...then i'll drop him off so he can get ready before he has to do details at 8p. I'm so excited, its not even funny. I'll get to spend the weekend with him, which makes me so much happier too. Just knowing that in 2 days I'll be with him FOR GOOD (well until (if) he gets deployed). We'll be able to be US again. its so exciting. He wont be able to live with me until mid-late april, but still. I'll be right there, so i can go see him on the weekends/weeknights (if he is able) and we can spend time together. :) Once he hits ATP (2nd phase), he can come to the house whenever he wants. :) that makes me happy.
But yeah. Wanted to post before leaving because I'm taking down my computer today and wont have it back up for a couple weeks. I'll have my phone and my netbook, but posting a blog on either of those is a pain in the butt. lol. I am so ready to be with my husband, its not even funny. I miss him tons. Its been 4 weeks since we were together last. Sure we get to skype/talk on the phone, but its sooo not the same. Especially with signal and internet being crap. Anywho...
I guess this is it! The next time you guys hear from me, I'll be sitting in my house in Biloxi, enjoying the fact that I am only 5 minutes from my husband versus 6 hours. :) gonna be nice!
Hope you guys have a fantastic day!
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