As I mentioned in my last blog, I wanted to start INSANITY. Well, now i have. I am officially on Day 4 of Insanity! (Already did my workout, tomorrow will be day 5). I am enjoying it thoroughly. While it is excruciating in some portions (for my weak ankles/wrists), I still enjoy it. I know i'm working my butt off. Literally. lol. I have decided not to count calories while i do so, but just pay attention to what i'm eating and how much. If i start to try counting calories i'm going to go crazy because I have NO IDEA how many i'm burning.... so yea. I need to get a heart rate monitor, but they're expensive.
I am doing it alone this first time. Mainly because i'm doing it at the house and there is NO ROOM. Also because I am out of shape and I want to go through a round by myself before I try to do it with anyone else. Daniel has been getting up with me so he can cheer me on while i do it, and that helps me keep going. Another thing that i've found that really helps is the Gatorade stuff. Daniel thinks I'm silly for believing in it, but whatever. I use the PRIME and RECOVER formulas. the Prime is great. it has B vitamins to help you power through your workout. The Recover is the perfect ratio of Carbs::protein that you need to recover from a workout. I usually drink half a bottle of the recover mixed with a small amount of water (its really syrupy). Its helped me out a lot I think. daniel thinks its bogus, but he says whatever gets me to do it and feel good about myself. :)
Also, a new thing started at work this week. They are allowing us a 10-minute break. They come in and cover us while we go take a break...I think i'm going to start utilizing this 10 minute break to have my snack. I'm gonna start bringing an apple, banana, granola bar, ect...and use that 10 minutes to eat and go potty. I think that will help me out A LOT. I hope they keep doing it. Its an awesome system. It will keep me from eating the kids food because instead of trying to wolf down a small granola bar in like 1 minute hiding in the room, I will get to sit, eat my snack, and drink plenty of water with it. Granola bars don't last very long if you don't have any water with it. :)
I have figured out that I will finish with Insanity on October 20. That will be the end of Round 1. I will then proceed to swimming, starting strength, and running. :) If i keep this up, I will be starting a second round of Insanity in December/January. by that time, I will have a little more time on my hands and hopefully have a ton more endurance and strength. :) not to mention be down a little in weight! lol
My goals for Insanity:
Lose 15lbs
Gain endurance
Gain strength
Gain energy
Wednesday, August 29, 2012
Thursday, August 16, 2012
Pure Insanity.
Okay. So, some things have changed since my last blog, but not a lot. Daniel's date (what we thought was November 19 is now December 18)...so thats a good change. I've had a lot of things and stress dealing with work and money and stuff, but some of that will start subsiding now. *i hope*
I also have come to the conclusion that I make excuses. A lot. "I don't feel good" or "that took too long, so i'm not going" or "i just don't want to." I'm tired of my crap. lol. I'm a b**** at home because of stress and stuff... I mean I get stressed out over the effing cars. Like seriously? When did a parking space matter? NEVER. Good grief. I do NOT like what i've been turning into. I think a lot of it has to do with 4 major things:
1) Stress at work
2) Stress at home
3) Stress over money
4) My temper
While I've gotten a tad better about my temper since marrying Daniel, I still let it get the best of me sometimes and I hate it. I believe a lot of this stress is about to change and make it to where I'm not so tired, sick, irritable, ect... I think the stress i've been under for the last 4 months is why i've been so sick...and why i'm always exhausted. What i've learned is that stress IS exhausting. I don't need to live like this! OMG I'M GOING TO DIE AT 35 IF I KEEP THIS UP! lol so here is why i believe things are getting better.
1) Daniel got a job. Hallelujah. Hallelujah. HALLELUJAH! That will help with the money stress. CHECK.
2) I'm starting in a new classroom (tomorrow actually...) with a lead who is pretty down to earth. so there goes my work stress *hopefully*. CHECK
3) I've been working on trying to calm myself. "Meditating" when i can. i'm not really sure how to do it... but i've been attempting for a few days...while my temper can sometimes just come out of nowhere, I think i've finally figured out when it starts to flare and I end up turning around and walking out of the situation...whilst that can cause other issues (because when i walk away with my temper, I tend to walk a bit heavier and shut doors a tad bit harder...whoops) it makes me step away from whatever caused it to flare up, realize i was being a crazy b**** and go back and apologize once i've calmed myself down....a few more weeks like that and MAYBE i wont lose my temper in the first place....who knows...unfortunately i think thats something i'm always going to be fighting, but...you live with what God has given...and you learn to tame your inner evil. lol
I've come to the conclusion that the stress at home wont really go away until Daniel and I move. Theres just too many people living here. I'm soo thankful for my parents and all they've done for us, and we would be out on the streets if they hadn't come up with this solution. That being said, nobody ever anticipated 3 families living under one roof. While it is great to have CJ and Megs around and not all the way in freaking Utah, its gonna put more stress on everyone. Including Meg and CJ. Its inevitable. Theres just too many personalities, lifestyles, feelings, ect involved and its crazy. NOW THAT BEING SAID, there are things we could and will start doing soon that will help ease some of the tensions and stress and all that....so...HOPEFULLY things will start slowly getting better...if not.. welll.....its only temporary. ;) lol
Now that i've gotten all the nasty business about why i haven't been so hard on myself when i don't do so well on my eating....lol...lets get to the part that i started this blog for in the first place. my weight.
Despite all this, I haven't done too terribly bad eating/drinking wise. I've been doing pretty well actually...aside from a trip to Chili's with my bestie and daniel, and i think fast food twice over the last couple weeks... but i'm really proud of myself. I have been good about what i drink. REALLY GOOD. I had a coke yesterday at lunch (on accident, you get in a habit of ordering something and i was in a hurry so i ordered it and left and was like CRAP)...but aside from that, i've only had my morning coffee, a fruit protein smoothie and WATER to drink every day for the last week now. Thats a feat, especially for me because I used to be the girl who would drink 6-8 cokes a day, sweet tea, juice, ect. i'm so stinking proud of myself.
So that being said, I would like to say that i am unofficially joining Team beachbody (i say unofficially because i'm not actually signing up for it, just doing the workout)...and starting Insanity. I probably wont start it until next Friday....or even possibly September 7...it just depends...i gotta figure out whats gonna work best with the things i'm going to have going on over the next few months...but i'm starting it. its not gonna be easy. its going to be damn hard. but Ash wants to do it, daniel said he'd do it with me, and both of my sisters said they want to try it too...so i have a pretty large support group to help me out. :) not to mention Daniel's friends Parker, Nathan, Ian, and Dillon are all doing it too...soooo yeah. we have the dvd's thanks to my amazing father in law and so i'm going to do it. I don't have to drive to do it...so...i think i can keep that up a bit easier than getting up early to drive to the gym, work out, drive back, and shower. :)
So now comes to the questions. I need to know, how much sleep do i need to be getting? I read differently all over the place... some say 7.5, some say 8, some even say 10. I need to know. right now i'm going to bed between 930 and 1030...and waking up around 6 and falling back to sleep until 650 or 7. so thats about 8.5 to 10hours every night...and i have an extremely hard time getting out of bed in the mornings. that needs to stop.
next quesiton. how can i get myself to wake up faster? is there anything i can do that will help me to get my butt out of bed? or is that sheer willpower?
I'm so tired of being TIRED...and again i say--that may change once i start exercising again, and sleeping the correct amount and my stress at work and with money starts to diminish.
Anyways. I guess i'm done...but if you have any tips you'd like to share or recipes or any kind of comment--feel free to post or message me on fb. :)
this is my mantra for Insanity. lol
hope you guys have a good night!
I also have come to the conclusion that I make excuses. A lot. "I don't feel good" or "that took too long, so i'm not going" or "i just don't want to." I'm tired of my crap. lol. I'm a b**** at home because of stress and stuff... I mean I get stressed out over the effing cars. Like seriously? When did a parking space matter? NEVER. Good grief. I do NOT like what i've been turning into. I think a lot of it has to do with 4 major things:
1) Stress at work
2) Stress at home
3) Stress over money
4) My temper
While I've gotten a tad better about my temper since marrying Daniel, I still let it get the best of me sometimes and I hate it. I believe a lot of this stress is about to change and make it to where I'm not so tired, sick, irritable, ect... I think the stress i've been under for the last 4 months is why i've been so sick...and why i'm always exhausted. What i've learned is that stress IS exhausting. I don't need to live like this! OMG I'M GOING TO DIE AT 35 IF I KEEP THIS UP! lol so here is why i believe things are getting better.
1) Daniel got a job. Hallelujah. Hallelujah. HALLELUJAH! That will help with the money stress. CHECK.
2) I'm starting in a new classroom (tomorrow actually...) with a lead who is pretty down to earth. so there goes my work stress *hopefully*. CHECK
3) I've been working on trying to calm myself. "Meditating" when i can. i'm not really sure how to do it... but i've been attempting for a few days...while my temper can sometimes just come out of nowhere, I think i've finally figured out when it starts to flare and I end up turning around and walking out of the situation...whilst that can cause other issues (because when i walk away with my temper, I tend to walk a bit heavier and shut doors a tad bit harder...whoops) it makes me step away from whatever caused it to flare up, realize i was being a crazy b**** and go back and apologize once i've calmed myself down....a few more weeks like that and MAYBE i wont lose my temper in the first place....who knows...unfortunately i think thats something i'm always going to be fighting, but...you live with what God has given...and you learn to tame your inner evil. lol
I've come to the conclusion that the stress at home wont really go away until Daniel and I move. Theres just too many people living here. I'm soo thankful for my parents and all they've done for us, and we would be out on the streets if they hadn't come up with this solution. That being said, nobody ever anticipated 3 families living under one roof. While it is great to have CJ and Megs around and not all the way in freaking Utah, its gonna put more stress on everyone. Including Meg and CJ. Its inevitable. Theres just too many personalities, lifestyles, feelings, ect involved and its crazy. NOW THAT BEING SAID, there are things we could and will start doing soon that will help ease some of the tensions and stress and all that....so...HOPEFULLY things will start slowly getting better...if not.. welll.....its only temporary. ;) lol
Now that i've gotten all the nasty business about why i haven't been so hard on myself when i don't do so well on my eating....lol...lets get to the part that i started this blog for in the first place. my weight.
Despite all this, I haven't done too terribly bad eating/drinking wise. I've been doing pretty well actually...aside from a trip to Chili's with my bestie and daniel, and i think fast food twice over the last couple weeks... but i'm really proud of myself. I have been good about what i drink. REALLY GOOD. I had a coke yesterday at lunch (on accident, you get in a habit of ordering something and i was in a hurry so i ordered it and left and was like CRAP)...but aside from that, i've only had my morning coffee, a fruit protein smoothie and WATER to drink every day for the last week now. Thats a feat, especially for me because I used to be the girl who would drink 6-8 cokes a day, sweet tea, juice, ect. i'm so stinking proud of myself.
So that being said, I would like to say that i am unofficially joining Team beachbody (i say unofficially because i'm not actually signing up for it, just doing the workout)...and starting Insanity. I probably wont start it until next Friday....or even possibly September 7...it just depends...i gotta figure out whats gonna work best with the things i'm going to have going on over the next few months...but i'm starting it. its not gonna be easy. its going to be damn hard. but Ash wants to do it, daniel said he'd do it with me, and both of my sisters said they want to try it too...so i have a pretty large support group to help me out. :) not to mention Daniel's friends Parker, Nathan, Ian, and Dillon are all doing it too...soooo yeah. we have the dvd's thanks to my amazing father in law and so i'm going to do it. I don't have to drive to do it...so...i think i can keep that up a bit easier than getting up early to drive to the gym, work out, drive back, and shower. :)
So now comes to the questions. I need to know, how much sleep do i need to be getting? I read differently all over the place... some say 7.5, some say 8, some even say 10. I need to know. right now i'm going to bed between 930 and 1030...and waking up around 6 and falling back to sleep until 650 or 7. so thats about 8.5 to 10hours every night...and i have an extremely hard time getting out of bed in the mornings. that needs to stop.
next quesiton. how can i get myself to wake up faster? is there anything i can do that will help me to get my butt out of bed? or is that sheer willpower?
I'm so tired of being TIRED...and again i say--that may change once i start exercising again, and sleeping the correct amount and my stress at work and with money starts to diminish.
Anyways. I guess i'm done...but if you have any tips you'd like to share or recipes or any kind of comment--feel free to post or message me on fb. :)
this is my mantra for Insanity. lolWednesday, July 18, 2012
Another Year Gone
Wow. I cannot believe I'm turning 22 on Friday. It seems like just yesterday I was 17 and foolish and freshly out of high school and fresh off a trip to Colorado. Now I'm turning 22, have an amazing husband, plans for our future, and a plan to change my lifestyle. Daniel will be going to BMT on November 19, 2012. Yes. You read right. That is the MONDAY OF THANKSGIVING. While I was originally really pissed at that fact (and the fact that he will miss our 3rd wedding anniversary, christmas, the new year, AND Valentine's Day), I have finally come to terms *for the most part* with this. I am glad we have a date, I wish it could be a different date, but....whatever--God has done this for a reason.
I guess a lot will be changing over the next year...so theres no telling where I'll be or what Daniel and I will be up to this time next year. Its crazy to think about because I don't even know where we will be in a year...like...literally. It could be ANYWHERE on the planet. I'm *hoping* for stateside...just because it would make visiting family and friends a TON easier, but I'm fine with whatever. It will be hard either way though. But its going to be an adventure and I'm SO excited that I have Daniel to share this adventure with. He is the best thing that has ever happened to me. I love him with all my heart, soul, and mind. People talk about soulmates, and Daniel literally is my other half. Butttt enough of me being sappy sappy. lol.
I'm kinda mad I have to work on Friday.... well not really that i have to work, but that I had asked off and got it approved like a month after starting this job...then about a month ago, they came and told me I had to change it and "sorry we approved it, but we added more blackout dates." Life. -.- Kinda over it...but at the same time, still it irks me. So i work my full day *hopefully getting off around 5-515* then *hopefully* going to Olive Garden and a movie with my wonderful husband. I told him I want a chill evening. I usually would want to dress up and all that fancy schmancy romantic shtuff. not this birthday. maybe next birthday. this birthday i just want chill. jeans. tshirt. yeah.... Saturday we're gonna go see his parents. and Sunday its off to bham for my mom's parents' 50th wedding anniversary. 47 more years for Daniel and I til we hit that huge landmark. ;) wont seem so long with this amazing man i've found.
anyways. I've done a lot of blabbing. lol. as for my diet (which is why i started this blog) its just kinda slowly going. I'm not really losing, but Daniel and I aren't really vegan... we're like... 40% vegan... we probably will never be 100%...but we'll be closer than we are now...probably more like 85%-90%. lol. but as for right now, theres just too much going on and we don't really have enough money to cover going vegan more than that. lol. what we're doing now is about breaking the bank. stupid healthy food being more expensive. meh, it happens. We'll be able to afford more once everything gets situated. lol.
but yea...so...life goes by fast...and its funny because it used to seem like the years went soo slowly...but now they are here then gone and its a new one and you're stuck sitting there staring going "wow...its already July, almost August? Dang.."
anyways. thats all cuz i'm starting to ramble because i'm exhausted. i'll write more eventually.
adios
I guess a lot will be changing over the next year...so theres no telling where I'll be or what Daniel and I will be up to this time next year. Its crazy to think about because I don't even know where we will be in a year...like...literally. It could be ANYWHERE on the planet. I'm *hoping* for stateside...just because it would make visiting family and friends a TON easier, but I'm fine with whatever. It will be hard either way though. But its going to be an adventure and I'm SO excited that I have Daniel to share this adventure with. He is the best thing that has ever happened to me. I love him with all my heart, soul, and mind. People talk about soulmates, and Daniel literally is my other half. Butttt enough of me being sappy sappy. lol.
I'm kinda mad I have to work on Friday.... well not really that i have to work, but that I had asked off and got it approved like a month after starting this job...then about a month ago, they came and told me I had to change it and "sorry we approved it, but we added more blackout dates." Life. -.- Kinda over it...but at the same time, still it irks me. So i work my full day *hopefully getting off around 5-515* then *hopefully* going to Olive Garden and a movie with my wonderful husband. I told him I want a chill evening. I usually would want to dress up and all that fancy schmancy romantic shtuff. not this birthday. maybe next birthday. this birthday i just want chill. jeans. tshirt. yeah.... Saturday we're gonna go see his parents. and Sunday its off to bham for my mom's parents' 50th wedding anniversary. 47 more years for Daniel and I til we hit that huge landmark. ;) wont seem so long with this amazing man i've found.
anyways. I've done a lot of blabbing. lol. as for my diet (which is why i started this blog) its just kinda slowly going. I'm not really losing, but Daniel and I aren't really vegan... we're like... 40% vegan... we probably will never be 100%...but we'll be closer than we are now...probably more like 85%-90%. lol. but as for right now, theres just too much going on and we don't really have enough money to cover going vegan more than that. lol. what we're doing now is about breaking the bank. stupid healthy food being more expensive. meh, it happens. We'll be able to afford more once everything gets situated. lol.
but yea...so...life goes by fast...and its funny because it used to seem like the years went soo slowly...but now they are here then gone and its a new one and you're stuck sitting there staring going "wow...its already July, almost August? Dang.."
anyways. thats all cuz i'm starting to ramble because i'm exhausted. i'll write more eventually.
adios
Wednesday, July 4, 2012
Holidays and Birthdays
oh man. this ones a doozie.
So...as you all know from my facebook posts and my last blog, Daniel and I have started eating a whole foods plant based diet (which from now on will just be WFPBD to save me some time). Well, as you know, today is July 4th, 2012. Happy Independence Day to all of you and yours btw! So today is usually about grilling out burgers, hot dogs, ribs, ect ect...spending time with family... well none of us wanted to cook, we just wanted to chill. So we went to Logan's.
Logans is fantastic. Btw. I love their steak. So I got a steak, baked potato, house salad with ranch and had a potato skin, a wing, and half a mozzarella stick. (and of course, a couple rolls). I ate about 6 bites of steak, 4 bites of potato, most of my salad....2 rolls...a wing, potato skin, and half a mozzarella stick. omg. i feel so sick to my stomach. like...i felt fine...until my steak was brought out...then i was like "oh my word." so word of wisdom to all those out there trying to eat better--don't do what i did.
I got my normal. My normal isn't normal for me anymore...so naturally my stomach is like "WTF uh-uh!" its gonna be a long night. So now its got me thinking "oh crap, my birthday is in 2 weeks...what am i gonna do?" NOT EAT AS MUCH. idk what got into me tonight...i went in saying "oh i wont eat that much"....but i guess it didn't seem like that much until the steak got there and then i was like "crap. now what?" lol. it happens...not gonna go beating myself up over it..just gonna know for next time...lol.
On a good note, i am seeing a difference (probably wont tomorrow, but whatever...i will friday. haha). So at the beginning of June, I was stuck at 250lbs. even. for like...3 weeks. never budging. always 250.0. I am proud to say that as of yesterday morning, I am at 246.8. That is just after one week of eating the WFPBD the best i can and cutting out most dairy, if not all. AND I talked to Sheryl (my boss) last night at the staff meeting and she said she was going to come up with a way for me to be able to step out of the classroom and eat a small snack so I am not tempted to eat the kids food anymore. I wanted to talk to her after the staff meeting because its calmer than attempting to talk during a hectic busy workday. I should find out tomorrow what I can do about that...So that makes me feel better. I can start bringing small plant based snacks that are dense and low in calories so it will get me all the way til 130. I have a feeling I will probably be allowed to eat it around 1030-1130. 1030 is when we come in from outside, 1130 is when the kids eat lunch. She started to say it was okay for me to eat carrots and stuff while the kids ate their lunch, but then I was like "i thought we couldn't eat our own food in front of the kids?!" and so she told me she'd figure something out by Thursday and let me know. I'm bringing a snack with me tomorrow just in case. ;) tomorrow is water day too...which means its gonna be nice and hot and i'm gonna be starving by the time we get back inside. lol.
I look forward to the next few months...learning what to do what not to do, making a difference in Daniel and my lives, my family's lives, our overall health. I've learned some great recipes already, and really enjoy them...(in fact tomorrow i'm making one from vegkitchen.com called Black Bean and Zucchini Tortilla Casserole)........however, I need some more breakfast recipes..I'm kinda getting tired of the oatmeal. i like it...but not every day kind of like it. LOL. maybe i'll start alternating that with a protein shake or something...... who knows(OH if any of you wanna get me a bday present, Everyday Happy Herbivore, 30 Minutes or Less Vegan.... actually, any vegan cookbook would be nice. LOL!!! just saying.... or money. money is always appreciated. LOL. )
anyways. i think i'm gonna go curl up in my bed, read my book and then listen to fireworks. This is my first *chill* fourth. i usually try to do something, but i've REALLY enjoyed just relaxing...would have been more relaxing if it was at the beach......but doesn't that go for all of us? lol.
I hope ya'll all had a safe and happy 4th. Enjoy the rest of your week!
OHH and if you have any good bfast ideas or recipes, message me or comment! I'm willing to do anything at this point.
So...as you all know from my facebook posts and my last blog, Daniel and I have started eating a whole foods plant based diet (which from now on will just be WFPBD to save me some time). Well, as you know, today is July 4th, 2012. Happy Independence Day to all of you and yours btw! So today is usually about grilling out burgers, hot dogs, ribs, ect ect...spending time with family... well none of us wanted to cook, we just wanted to chill. So we went to Logan's.
Logans is fantastic. Btw. I love their steak. So I got a steak, baked potato, house salad with ranch and had a potato skin, a wing, and half a mozzarella stick. (and of course, a couple rolls). I ate about 6 bites of steak, 4 bites of potato, most of my salad....2 rolls...a wing, potato skin, and half a mozzarella stick. omg. i feel so sick to my stomach. like...i felt fine...until my steak was brought out...then i was like "oh my word." so word of wisdom to all those out there trying to eat better--don't do what i did.
I got my normal. My normal isn't normal for me anymore...so naturally my stomach is like "WTF uh-uh!" its gonna be a long night. So now its got me thinking "oh crap, my birthday is in 2 weeks...what am i gonna do?" NOT EAT AS MUCH. idk what got into me tonight...i went in saying "oh i wont eat that much"....but i guess it didn't seem like that much until the steak got there and then i was like "crap. now what?" lol. it happens...not gonna go beating myself up over it..just gonna know for next time...lol.
On a good note, i am seeing a difference (probably wont tomorrow, but whatever...i will friday. haha). So at the beginning of June, I was stuck at 250lbs. even. for like...3 weeks. never budging. always 250.0. I am proud to say that as of yesterday morning, I am at 246.8. That is just after one week of eating the WFPBD the best i can and cutting out most dairy, if not all. AND I talked to Sheryl (my boss) last night at the staff meeting and she said she was going to come up with a way for me to be able to step out of the classroom and eat a small snack so I am not tempted to eat the kids food anymore. I wanted to talk to her after the staff meeting because its calmer than attempting to talk during a hectic busy workday. I should find out tomorrow what I can do about that...So that makes me feel better. I can start bringing small plant based snacks that are dense and low in calories so it will get me all the way til 130. I have a feeling I will probably be allowed to eat it around 1030-1130. 1030 is when we come in from outside, 1130 is when the kids eat lunch. She started to say it was okay for me to eat carrots and stuff while the kids ate their lunch, but then I was like "i thought we couldn't eat our own food in front of the kids?!" and so she told me she'd figure something out by Thursday and let me know. I'm bringing a snack with me tomorrow just in case. ;) tomorrow is water day too...which means its gonna be nice and hot and i'm gonna be starving by the time we get back inside. lol.
I look forward to the next few months...learning what to do what not to do, making a difference in Daniel and my lives, my family's lives, our overall health. I've learned some great recipes already, and really enjoy them...(in fact tomorrow i'm making one from vegkitchen.com called Black Bean and Zucchini Tortilla Casserole)........however, I need some more breakfast recipes..I'm kinda getting tired of the oatmeal. i like it...but not every day kind of like it. LOL. maybe i'll start alternating that with a protein shake or something...... who knows(OH if any of you wanna get me a bday present, Everyday Happy Herbivore, 30 Minutes or Less Vegan.... actually, any vegan cookbook would be nice. LOL!!! just saying.... or money. money is always appreciated. LOL. )
anyways. i think i'm gonna go curl up in my bed, read my book and then listen to fireworks. This is my first *chill* fourth. i usually try to do something, but i've REALLY enjoyed just relaxing...would have been more relaxing if it was at the beach......but doesn't that go for all of us? lol.
I hope ya'll all had a safe and happy 4th. Enjoy the rest of your week!
OHH and if you have any good bfast ideas or recipes, message me or comment! I'm willing to do anything at this point.
Friday, June 29, 2012
A Natural Renewal
Okay...since most of the people who read this are off of facebook, you guys may have been realizing i've been posting about my "vegan" meals....well here's the story behind it all. Scoff if you want, I've already lost 3 lbs just by eating HEALTHY.
So here goes:
Last Saturday, Daniel and I went over to his parents' house to celebrate his dad's birthday. While we were over there, we got on the subject of diet. His brother kept on saying "cut out dairy. period. its awful. get rid of it" and being the stubborn old me, i rolled my eyes thinking "ya ya, whatever." (sorry christian, its true. thats what i was thinking... LOL) but anyways...so we talked and talked about nutrition and stuff, and then Christan mentioned this documentary called Forks Over Knives on Netflix (and that is a link to the website in case you were curious).... they started to play it, but then daniel and his mom wanted to watch more of Surviving the Cut (a military documentary series)...so we forgot about it...until Sunday.
Daniel turned it on, and for the first 30 minutes, i didn't give a rats you-know-what about it. I was just chillin looking up random stuff on the internet and browsing...then after about 30 minutes, he turns to me and said "i'm pausing it until you stop what you are doing and watch this with me." when i realized he was serious, i begrudgingly shut the netbook and sat up to watch it.
Oh. My. Gosh.
I never realized half the stuff they talked about. (if you haven't watched it, download it or watch it on Netflix.) It showed a woman who was diagnosed with breast cancer, but she switched to a plant based diet (which is what this documentary focused on) and it went into remission. countless people on here showing that diabetes was almost cured where they didn't have to take the medicines anymore... people with headaches (like ME) who switched and they hardly ever get headaches anymore...stuff like that...not to mention, they lose weight. So it got daniel and i talking.
We decided right then it was time for a change. We went to The Fresh Market, Barnes and Noble, and Target that day to try to come up with pricing, and we found the book that went with the documentary (it has some delish recipes!) we bought that...found some recipes we wanted to try, and got a few items from Target to start us off. On Tuesday, we went to Earth Fare and bought 5 different kinds of beans, basmati brown rice, and quinoa (and spent some time with Daniel's mom--which was fantastic!) we got a lot of items to kind of jump start us.
Now, I know you're thinking "bethany, what the HECK has gotten into you?!? are you crazy?!?" no i'm not crazy. i just want to get healthy. and after watching that documentary, i didn't see what i had to lose by attempting to eat a bunch more whole grains, veggies, and fruit. like seriously? not that hard. We're not going COMPLETELY vegan...at least not right now...mainly because we're living with my parents and that would be hard as heck to do. but, the past 3 nights we've made our own meals while my parents made theirs. just because we wanted to....we aren't technically "starting" until Sunday, but we were anxious to try some random stuff. lol. for example:
Wednesday night I got home and was like "hmmm. i want to throw a bunch of random veggies in a pot with brown rice and veggie broth and a little bit of our soy sauce alternative..." and daniel was like "okay?!?" so we cooked brown rice, chopped up some carrots, celery, onion, and some of that soy sauce stuff...and it was FANTASTIC. lol and filling, of course.
Last night i made vegan tacos (sorta)...boca crumbles, a tiny bit of cheese (hence the sorta), spinach, tomato, black beans...whole wheat whole grain tortilla.....and of ccourse for breakfast we've been doing this recipe from the cookbook called "cinnamon raisin oatmeal". old fashioned oats, cinnamon, and raisins. easy. and if you like it creamy, add a bit of almond milk and you're good to go. ;)
the only thing i'm gonna really have a problem with is work. -.- i wish there was a way for me to step out of the room and eat a few carrots or celery or something...but alas there is not so i'll just have to make do for now. :)
but yeah. so... thoughts? been wanting to post a blog for a while now, but all i was gonna post before hand was one titled "dark wings, dark words" because i was about to give up completely with everything going on. working out is out of the question for right now (too much stress between work, cooking, and working out)...so...i'm trying to be more active (if thats even possible) at work....and just..eating "vegan." or as close as we can. but i seriously was gonna give up completely...but after seeing 3lbs come off just this week??...yeah okay...i'm stoked. not gonna lie. but anyways.
So here goes:
Last Saturday, Daniel and I went over to his parents' house to celebrate his dad's birthday. While we were over there, we got on the subject of diet. His brother kept on saying "cut out dairy. period. its awful. get rid of it" and being the stubborn old me, i rolled my eyes thinking "ya ya, whatever." (sorry christian, its true. thats what i was thinking... LOL) but anyways...so we talked and talked about nutrition and stuff, and then Christan mentioned this documentary called Forks Over Knives on Netflix (and that is a link to the website in case you were curious).... they started to play it, but then daniel and his mom wanted to watch more of Surviving the Cut (a military documentary series)...so we forgot about it...until Sunday.
Daniel turned it on, and for the first 30 minutes, i didn't give a rats you-know-what about it. I was just chillin looking up random stuff on the internet and browsing...then after about 30 minutes, he turns to me and said "i'm pausing it until you stop what you are doing and watch this with me." when i realized he was serious, i begrudgingly shut the netbook and sat up to watch it.
Oh. My. Gosh.
I never realized half the stuff they talked about. (if you haven't watched it, download it or watch it on Netflix.) It showed a woman who was diagnosed with breast cancer, but she switched to a plant based diet (which is what this documentary focused on) and it went into remission. countless people on here showing that diabetes was almost cured where they didn't have to take the medicines anymore... people with headaches (like ME) who switched and they hardly ever get headaches anymore...stuff like that...not to mention, they lose weight. So it got daniel and i talking.
We decided right then it was time for a change. We went to The Fresh Market, Barnes and Noble, and Target that day to try to come up with pricing, and we found the book that went with the documentary (it has some delish recipes!) we bought that...found some recipes we wanted to try, and got a few items from Target to start us off. On Tuesday, we went to Earth Fare and bought 5 different kinds of beans, basmati brown rice, and quinoa (and spent some time with Daniel's mom--which was fantastic!) we got a lot of items to kind of jump start us.
Now, I know you're thinking "bethany, what the HECK has gotten into you?!? are you crazy?!?" no i'm not crazy. i just want to get healthy. and after watching that documentary, i didn't see what i had to lose by attempting to eat a bunch more whole grains, veggies, and fruit. like seriously? not that hard. We're not going COMPLETELY vegan...at least not right now...mainly because we're living with my parents and that would be hard as heck to do. but, the past 3 nights we've made our own meals while my parents made theirs. just because we wanted to....we aren't technically "starting" until Sunday, but we were anxious to try some random stuff. lol. for example:
Wednesday night I got home and was like "hmmm. i want to throw a bunch of random veggies in a pot with brown rice and veggie broth and a little bit of our soy sauce alternative..." and daniel was like "okay?!?" so we cooked brown rice, chopped up some carrots, celery, onion, and some of that soy sauce stuff...and it was FANTASTIC. lol and filling, of course.
Last night i made vegan tacos (sorta)...boca crumbles, a tiny bit of cheese (hence the sorta), spinach, tomato, black beans...whole wheat whole grain tortilla.....and of ccourse for breakfast we've been doing this recipe from the cookbook called "cinnamon raisin oatmeal". old fashioned oats, cinnamon, and raisins. easy. and if you like it creamy, add a bit of almond milk and you're good to go. ;)
the only thing i'm gonna really have a problem with is work. -.- i wish there was a way for me to step out of the room and eat a few carrots or celery or something...but alas there is not so i'll just have to make do for now. :)
but yeah. so... thoughts? been wanting to post a blog for a while now, but all i was gonna post before hand was one titled "dark wings, dark words" because i was about to give up completely with everything going on. working out is out of the question for right now (too much stress between work, cooking, and working out)...so...i'm trying to be more active (if thats even possible) at work....and just..eating "vegan." or as close as we can. but i seriously was gonna give up completely...but after seeing 3lbs come off just this week??...yeah okay...i'm stoked. not gonna lie. but anyways.
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| this is dinner from tonight--quinoa topped with squash, zucchini, broccoli, chickpeas, carrots, celery, onion, and a bit of veggie broth. ;)
comments appreciated! :)
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Thursday, June 14, 2012
Chalkin' it up to Stress
I've been looking for answers over the last week as to why I haven't been losing like I was or wanted to...and everywhere I've read its stated "stress is a leading factor in weight gain, you should avoid getting too stressed out or your body will start storing fat." and i'm like "avoid stress? how!?!"
That is what i want to know from you guys...stress busters, stuff to help...cuz this is ridiculous. I've been so stressed out over the last week...(i got a lot going on, and work isn't helping me AT ALL). I don't know what to do. I'm assuming that the massive migrane that has about made me pass out 3 times this morning was from the stress over the week just building and building until BAM. migrane. yuck. I know why i get stressed out... I'm a planner (in case you guys don't know that)...I like everything to be in order, i want to know whats going to happen and when, and i'm slightly OCD about it.
My mom has told me for years I need to be "more flexible" and for YEARS i've tried and tried again...but this little thing inside me makes me want to plan every moment of every day and clock it to the millisecond. When shit hits the fan, however, I go bonkers. I'm immediately in emergency mode trying to re-plan everything and stressing out if i can't get it all done. I dont know how to fix this. I mean, its just who i am. I grew up saying the verse: "Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God." Phillipians 4:6
a bit ironic, don't you think? I've been saying that since i was like...12...and yet..thats the one aspect of me i need work on. being anxious. stressing out. worrying. I'm a mother hen worrying over everyone including myself. I guess i just let it get the best of me. When people tell me that i need to chill out or stop worrying so much...i look at them and i'm like "how. you show me how. cuz i've been trying to CHILL OUT for 10 years now...and I STILL haven't figured it out."
But i'm assuming this is why i'm not losing. Now, don't take that the wrong way and think "oh no, you've gained those 10lbs back already?" NOPE. i'm stuck at 248.6. which is better i guess than gaining it back. lol. but thats my issue. I have a FANTASTIC diet. (aside from cheat days, which are OKAY in my book as long as i don't go overboard, and i usually don't because i do not want to undo my work so far). I am eating healthier than i ever have...and i've gotten my parents on board too. which is HUGE. my mom is slowly growing to like the wheat versions..like brown rice, low cal bread, wheat buns, ect. slowly, but i'm trying. i eat more fresh fruit and veggies than i ever have...and fiber and protein galore. Little to no processed foods. I think i'm doing fantastic on my diet.
My exercise? I have never felt so great about exercise. I love it. I miss it when I'm sick or have to miss it (like last night) because i have more pressing matters to face. Now granted, i could have gone after I had taken care of all that crap i had to do when i got off last night, but by that time i was starving, it was 7p, and the gym closed in 2 hours...and i was like 20 minutes away without my clothes. so i was like "nope. couch time." so....yeah...and obviously if i can't get this damn migrane to go away i wont be able to go tonight--seeing as i want to go to work tomorrow.
I do resistance training 2days/wk. the other 3 i do cardio (with 2 rest days preferably...) but 4 days at the gym is better than none, so sometimes i may have 3 rest days...but i wont kick myself too much over it. I think it will be easier once everything is sorted out with Daniel and the USAF and we have dates and stuff and i can plan and he can plan and we'll all be hunky dory. also after some other stuff sorts itself out, we will be good. but right now? I got so much going on that i cannot even think straight. I was trying to pray before going to bed and kept getting sidetracked. within a 2 minute prayer. really?! i got too much going on.
but anyways...i know most of you don't get stressed out like i do...but you can't possibly NEVER get stressed...so tell me...what do YOU do to keep yourself virtually "stress-free"?
that is all. comment or message me on FB
adios
That is what i want to know from you guys...stress busters, stuff to help...cuz this is ridiculous. I've been so stressed out over the last week...(i got a lot going on, and work isn't helping me AT ALL). I don't know what to do. I'm assuming that the massive migrane that has about made me pass out 3 times this morning was from the stress over the week just building and building until BAM. migrane. yuck. I know why i get stressed out... I'm a planner (in case you guys don't know that)...I like everything to be in order, i want to know whats going to happen and when, and i'm slightly OCD about it.
My mom has told me for years I need to be "more flexible" and for YEARS i've tried and tried again...but this little thing inside me makes me want to plan every moment of every day and clock it to the millisecond. When shit hits the fan, however, I go bonkers. I'm immediately in emergency mode trying to re-plan everything and stressing out if i can't get it all done. I dont know how to fix this. I mean, its just who i am. I grew up saying the verse: "Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God." Phillipians 4:6
a bit ironic, don't you think? I've been saying that since i was like...12...and yet..thats the one aspect of me i need work on. being anxious. stressing out. worrying. I'm a mother hen worrying over everyone including myself. I guess i just let it get the best of me. When people tell me that i need to chill out or stop worrying so much...i look at them and i'm like "how. you show me how. cuz i've been trying to CHILL OUT for 10 years now...and I STILL haven't figured it out."
But i'm assuming this is why i'm not losing. Now, don't take that the wrong way and think "oh no, you've gained those 10lbs back already?" NOPE. i'm stuck at 248.6. which is better i guess than gaining it back. lol. but thats my issue. I have a FANTASTIC diet. (aside from cheat days, which are OKAY in my book as long as i don't go overboard, and i usually don't because i do not want to undo my work so far). I am eating healthier than i ever have...and i've gotten my parents on board too. which is HUGE. my mom is slowly growing to like the wheat versions..like brown rice, low cal bread, wheat buns, ect. slowly, but i'm trying. i eat more fresh fruit and veggies than i ever have...and fiber and protein galore. Little to no processed foods. I think i'm doing fantastic on my diet.
My exercise? I have never felt so great about exercise. I love it. I miss it when I'm sick or have to miss it (like last night) because i have more pressing matters to face. Now granted, i could have gone after I had taken care of all that crap i had to do when i got off last night, but by that time i was starving, it was 7p, and the gym closed in 2 hours...and i was like 20 minutes away without my clothes. so i was like "nope. couch time." so....yeah...and obviously if i can't get this damn migrane to go away i wont be able to go tonight--seeing as i want to go to work tomorrow.
I do resistance training 2days/wk. the other 3 i do cardio (with 2 rest days preferably...) but 4 days at the gym is better than none, so sometimes i may have 3 rest days...but i wont kick myself too much over it. I think it will be easier once everything is sorted out with Daniel and the USAF and we have dates and stuff and i can plan and he can plan and we'll all be hunky dory. also after some other stuff sorts itself out, we will be good. but right now? I got so much going on that i cannot even think straight. I was trying to pray before going to bed and kept getting sidetracked. within a 2 minute prayer. really?! i got too much going on.
but anyways...i know most of you don't get stressed out like i do...but you can't possibly NEVER get stressed...so tell me...what do YOU do to keep yourself virtually "stress-free"?
that is all. comment or message me on FB
adios
Tuesday, June 12, 2012
Discouraged. :(
I know the weight loss journey hasn't been easy yet, and i know it wont be...but today i'm feeling a little bit discouraged. I've been fluctuating between 248.6 and 250.6 for the past three days and I do not understand it. I'm eating below my calorie max on spark people, i'm working out, i always have a deficit of 1000 or more....i don't understand it. I've been eating fresh fruit like there's no tomorrow, doing protein shakes after resistance training, making sure what i eat is healthy....i should be losing, not hitting a plateau this early. It makes me mad... i don't know why i'm not losing. I don't know why i'm stuck. its just really discouraging.
i have no motivation right now. at all. there's so many stressors in my life right now, I've got better things to worry about than my weight. Which it shouldn't be this way. I mean, i still want to lose weight--don't get me wrong...its just...even with me making all these changes and making sure that i'm below my calorie limit and stuff...i'm not losing...and its really REALLY disheartening. I just don't know what i'm doing wrong.
I'm so...idk..scared that my efforts are not making progress...i mean obviously they're not...because after 10lbs of loss, i'm stuck exactly at 10lbs lost...and some mornings i'm only 8lbs lost. its irritating. i don't know what i'm doing wrong! heres a look at my day yesterday...
breakfast--1 cup multigrain cheerios w/ milk; fruit (strawberries, banana, blueberries)
lunch--tuna salad sandwich, 100cal popcorn, apple
dinner--protein shake made of pure protein powder, milk, strawberries, and blueberries; graham cracker
my total calorie intake for the day was like...1450 or something like that...my max is 1680... i had a calorie differential of 1052 or something like that. -.- that slightly irritates me. i did my resistance training yesterday too. idk... i'm just so discouraged... i don't know what i'm doing wrong. i should be under 240 by now. :(
help? i need advice.... tips....encouragement...something. :(
i have no motivation right now. at all. there's so many stressors in my life right now, I've got better things to worry about than my weight. Which it shouldn't be this way. I mean, i still want to lose weight--don't get me wrong...its just...even with me making all these changes and making sure that i'm below my calorie limit and stuff...i'm not losing...and its really REALLY disheartening. I just don't know what i'm doing wrong.
I'm so...idk..scared that my efforts are not making progress...i mean obviously they're not...because after 10lbs of loss, i'm stuck exactly at 10lbs lost...and some mornings i'm only 8lbs lost. its irritating. i don't know what i'm doing wrong! heres a look at my day yesterday...
breakfast--1 cup multigrain cheerios w/ milk; fruit (strawberries, banana, blueberries)
lunch--tuna salad sandwich, 100cal popcorn, apple
dinner--protein shake made of pure protein powder, milk, strawberries, and blueberries; graham cracker
my total calorie intake for the day was like...1450 or something like that...my max is 1680... i had a calorie differential of 1052 or something like that. -.- that slightly irritates me. i did my resistance training yesterday too. idk... i'm just so discouraged... i don't know what i'm doing wrong. i should be under 240 by now. :(
help? i need advice.... tips....encouragement...something. :(
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